Friday, October 31, 2008

Personality test

I am bored. :l
Quiz here: http://www.handwritingwizard.com/analysis.php

Weiling is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Weiling will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Weiling an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Weiling is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Weiling is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Weiling doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Weiling will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Weiling believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Weiling will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

In reference to Weiling's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Weiling slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Weiling can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Weiling is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Weiling basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Weiling is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Something is incomplete in Weiling's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Weiling's sexual needs.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Weiling has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Weiling fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Weiling has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Weiling just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Weiling finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

So what do you think? :)

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Happy 14th, Carolyn

I shall start today's post with a very wise quote from Huishan. :)

you are someone else says (8:40 PM):
Love is patient. Love is kind. Love means slowly losing your mind. HAHAHAHAHA.

And then another from her history teacher:

you are someone else says (9:03 PM):
OH YOU KNOW DID I TELL YOU WHAT MY HISTORY TEACHER SAID.
WEILING says (9:03 PM):
you are very smart?
you are someone else says (9:04 PM):
She was like: There was once I went to oversee some UG stuff. This girl she said "yes sir" to me and I was like "Am I a sir or a madam?" and that girl was like "Madam, sir."

Anyway ...



Carolyn is 14 turning to 4. :)

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

If you love me, won't you let me know

Warning: This post might just leave you puking all over the place and render you blind. Do not view unless you have a strong stomach and eyes. :)

I was digging through all my pictures and found some really fugly (hell, even this is an understatement) pictures of myself.
When I was in primary school, nonetheless.
And for entertainment sake, shall post them up :B See the transformation for yourself!

Whats up with that smile manzxszxs?!

Whats with the center parting?!

My hair ... -_________-

I look like such a slut!

WHATS UP WITH MY FRINGE?!?!?!?!

MY SMILE!!!

WHAT AM I WEARING?!?!?!?!??!!?!?!?!?!

WHAT AM I WEARING AND WHATS WITH MY HAIR?!?!?!?!?!?!

What.The.Fuck.Am.I.WEARING?!?!?!?!
On the other hand, Maya looks so adorable there. :)

Seriously. What was I thinking?
Looking at my legs though ... I think I've slimmed down (okay, maybe not. My jeans were all too big for me at that time).

Well. I've certainly become much, much better-looking (I'm not saying I'm pretty!) and I'm so glad for that. No wonder I was not very well-liked during primary school. :( My ugliness scared all of them away ~ T-T

Went out with Carolyn, Najeera & Nora today to watch [of all movies] HSM3. -___-
It was ... alright, I guess. But it's so goddamn mushy. Urgh, I was half-laughing, half-grimacing all the way cus of the mushiness. Urghhhhh.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Photographyyyyyyy <3

I want a photography partner damn badly :(
Cus its not fun going to places alone.
Too bad for me that no one I know is interested in photography -.-
I want to go to these places:
  1. MacKenzie Road dilapidated shophouses
  2. Blair Plains
  3. Kampong Glam; Old Malay Cemetery
  4. Woodlands Road; Old Chinese Cemetery
  5. Masjid Omar Salmah
  6. Matilda's House
  7. Hyderabad Road
Just for the sake of photography but no one wants to go cus they say its very boring. Alamak. Nevermind. Shall go by myself once I find the guts.

Haven't been going out cus I'm too lazy (-.-) to wake up early and stuffs, hahaha. :B
Not going to blog very often.

Bye :)

Monday, October 27, 2008

:/

I hate liars.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Pause


I am sadddddddd :(

I am very filial so I went to Redhill today to visit my ahma alone and had lunch with her.
Sometimes I wish my Chinese was better so I can communicate with my ahma better but my Chinese is even worse than Maya and I know that cus I was reading her K1 chinese textbooks and I couldn't read like half of the whole thing and its K1 okay, K1, which shows how noob I am at Chinese.

On a random note:



Albert's dream job is to be a manwhore.

Anyway, my lingx-@hotmail.com account was hacked into, so I set up another one, and I love the theme that I've downloaded.



SO CUTEEEEEEEEEE! :D There are many other colour options too heheehehe 8)
Maggie, see, I put you first ;)



Even my Hotmail is not spared 8D

-




The worst part about not being told the truth is knowing that you aren't worth the truth.

I tried to move on, I tried to forget, I tried to hate. I really did. I tried to tell myself that you don't want me and I can't have you anymore. I tried so hard, but how can you let go of the only person who makes you happy? The only person who makes you feel alive? The only reason you're still here?
You can't just let go of someone like that.


(EDITED)

HAHHAHAHHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!



Someone give me the Best Impersonation of a Twit award already!

I love Photoshop

I've been very bored lately so I've been fiddling around with Photoshop.



I like this one the best :D



The "pathway" is VERY distorted, but first time first time. Shall do better next time. ;)

Bye! :D

Saturday, October 25, 2008

New email

Hello guys!
My original hotmail account has been hacked into, so please ignore whatever messages you recieve from it [definitely not me!] and readd me at:

w-eiling@hotmail.com

I would add all of you back myself, but I've already lost all of my contacts!
Sorry for the inconvenience, and thankyou! :D

Friday, October 24, 2008

Going twit for the night

(Note: I'm just bored, I'm not like that at all and I'm just purposely posing like that! And typing like that. I'm not so disgusting okay.)

haiixs rreaders ~~ ;DD
tuuhdayqs verris b0riinqqs ;(( n0 0nees ddates miiexs 0utts . whyyes ?. euus alls duunch lurbbs miiexs ?. ;'((( cees ! iies cryiinq liia00s !! T-T s0bs s0bs .

s0s . tuuh reliiefs miiexs b0red0ms ,, iies iish takiinqq sexayye peekstures 0ffs miiexsellfs !~ ;DD teehees .




00hs miiexs gawwds lahrrs . whyyes iies s0 prettixs siials ?. [[; euus readders . dunnchs biiexs jeel0ous 0ffs miiexs w0rkkayys ?. teehees !! ;DD

actiinqqs em00s iish s0 hawtts ! x33
whyyes ahrrs ?



hmms ... lettx miies thiinks ...

0hhs miiexs dearrs . iies ars0 dunnch n00es whyyes actiinqq em00s iish k00ls . iies juus c0piiex miies fweens . ehs , iie issh n0rts a c0piieme0ws 0kehs ! rawhrs >;[ iies muss f0ll0ws dhees trrennds marhhs !! wadds tuuhs d00s ?

aiiyahhs . iies g0ttas g00s alrrs . ;(( g0rrts briieffiinqqs campps tuumarrahs . DD; siians ahhrrs ~ whyyes iies ch00seens siials ? muss c0s iies t00s cllevers . teehees !

0hhs , && biiferrs iies g0es ...



iies luuvs euus guuqqs ~ !! ;DDD

muuacks !! x3
l0tssa luuvs , xiia0liinqqs x33 ` _

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Sporadic

I have all these feelings, these weird feelings, and I've this ... burning desire to express them. But I can't. I just can't. It's like, the words are trapped inside me, my heart, and I can't release them out and they're burdening me.

Short update

Have to rush off soon for my jog ... apparently, I'm becoming "flabbier", so my parents are making me go exercise to keep off the flabs! Mmmm.

Got back my report book today :) My overall results:

EL - 77, A1
MT - 52, C6
Maths - 53, C6 [urgh, have to get a tutor]
Science - 72, A2
Geog - 74, A2
Hist - 75, A1
Lit - 78, A1
D&T - 61, B4
Home Econs - 73, A2
Art - 56, C5

Total - 671/1000 [67.1%]
Class Position - 6/38
Level Position - 26/100+

Shan't bother with comments.
Generally, I'm quite pleased with my 6As [3 A1s, 3 A2s] and that my overall increased from last year. :) Its only a B3, but I'm working to get an A. At least I'm quite consistent. Jingting is 13th [I think] in level and her % is 69% and I'm 26th, and 67% so the competition this year is very close.

However, I need to buck up on my Maths. :) The only subject that I care about that I'm grappling with. I need a female private tutor :/ No males please, I am very scared of males, esp male strangers.

I'm quite sad though. Not because it's the last day of school, but because no one really congratulated me for my results. I know they're not so great, but still. A teeny weeny bit of support won't hurt right? People keep on telling me, "Sec 2 niah, so easy, I also can get this kind of results. Sec 3 you die liao," or "Hello, this is not even Os, so haolian for what?" or "HAHA I DID BETTER THAN YOU HAHAHAHAHA SUCKER."

I also hate it that everyone [okay, almost] are boasting about their parents rewarding them for their results. I never get any. People get $100, $200, one even got $700, but I get nothing at all. Yes, I should get good results for myself. Not because I want something out of it. But I'm so envious, other people get such rewards while I get nothing and everytime I think about it, my eyes starts getting watery.

I have no idea why I'm so emotional lately. Everything gets to me. Like, really gets to me. I get annoyed by everything and anything. Annoyed or disappointed or hurt or pained or pleased or angered. :| And its not even my period yet.

Gehhhhhhhh, whatever. My feelings are not important and I shouldn't burden others with my problems.

Bye :D

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Sculpture Walk

Immature idiots that think they know everything about love, when they don't.

-

Pictures for today's Sculpture Walk. :)
Lazy to blog properly, shall just dump photos.

In the bus [both going to and coming back]:







Omg, the right side of my face totally disappeared. HAHAHA.

And let me present to you ...

*drumroll pleaseeeeee

xiiaosliingqqs && xiia0sjennz x33 ` _







We were copying this girl in our school. She's totally infamous. :D
And I make a totally good ahlian c:
And Jennifer zaogeng-ed in the last picture, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.





And now, pictures from the tour (or walk) itself:















Heh, this sculpture is so cool. From far, it looks normal. But when you get nearer to it, it looks flat ... like it's a painting or something.







Supposed to walk around that fountain thingy 3 times and wish for something. Apparently it'll come true. :/



I didn't wish for anything, don't believe in these kind of things. I was just enjoying touching the cold water. 8)



I like this picture if it wasn't so ... off? Like not proportionate. :( Cus I was being jostled by the crowd. Pah, excuses excuses.



I look very ugly cus the wind was blowing my hair all over the place ... tsk.

Took a few more pictures [lazy to upload] and then left for school. :)
Okay, I'm tired. Off to read my manga [just started on this one called 'Good Morning Call', its really good, and Albert is apparently reading 'Absolute Boyfriend', and that manga is the sex w0rkayzxszxsz].

I won't be online much these days.

Tomorrow is the last day of school. Mmm. Melange of joy and sadness. Isn't that so cliche?

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Time heals everything ... not.

(Disclaimer: This is just my own opinion. Its up to you to agree with me or not, to believe me or not. As quoted from Buddha, "Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.")

"They say that time heals everything, but I'm still waiting."
"Time heals nothing."
"An eternity will never heal my wounds."

Sounds familiar, doesn't it? Everyone will say it at least once in their lifetime.
Someone you love has betrayed you, someone you love has revealed your secret, someone you love has left you, someone you love has lied to you, someone you love has hurt you. It has disappointed you, it has stolen your hope, stolen your faith, and your heart feels dead.

The truth is, time does not heal you. You yourself heals you. Nobody else can. Time is not the healer. You are the healer. We are the helpers - we support you, we comfort you, we do everything we can for you, but it all boils down to the fact that only you can change yourself and pick yourself up from the situation.

Time is just a factor, nothing more and nothing less.
You cannot forget what you don't want to forget. People can brainwash you, try to hypnotize you, try whatever methods they can, but you just cannot forget what you don't want to forget.

Humans are naturally impatient. When they're faced with a difficult situation, they want the solution immediately. They want it now. When the solution does not come, they become frustrated.

The same goes with moving on. A few days, a few weeks, a few years later, and you still haven't get over the hurt, you blame it on time when actually you yourself are at fault for not being able to deal with reality.

When it comes to matters of the heart, it is impossible to forget a love. Because you've loved them, you've loved them with every fiber of your being. You have countless memories with them. Even when you have moved on, a teeny weeny part of you still love them. If you don't, then you really didn't love them at all. Don't despair, you will find your one and only in the end.

When it comes to friendship, you have to understand that even the closest of friends can betray one another and drift apart. Forever is a long, long time and time has a way of changing things. Promises are more often than not broken.

When it comes to the loss of someone dear to you, it was their time to go. No matter how young they are, how old they are, how much success they had, it was their time to go. Whoever created us called for them, and they had to leave. Don't grieve. Deaths are impossible to avoid.

Point of this whole post: time doesn't heal everything, it just helps to.

Same as the saying that goes that nobody can change you, only you can change yourself -
Only you can heal yourself, nobody else can. Nothing else can.

Only you.

Monday, October 20, 2008

HSBC Treetop Walk

I'm so irritated!
I'm trying to upload the videos I took today to Youtube, BUT THEY'RE JUST NOT UPLOADING!!!!!! Okay, they are. But when they hit 100%, no confirmation message, nothing, just continue uploading even though it's already "100% uploaded". Oh to hell with it, shall just upload pictures first.

I'm very proud to say I woke up at 7am today. Not. -.- Wasted $4.90 taking a cab to school. Sheesh. My precious $$$ :(





Hahahaha, Jennifer and Anthony got a lot of chemistry together w0rhzxs. :B
Got back our overall results for the whole year today, I topped 3 subjects!

English - 77
Literature - 75
History - 78 [with Jennifer, bah]

But you know what, I'm so sad over my position in level. I am only a 26th. I dropped from a 5th to 26th!!!! Wtf. I suck I suck I suck I suck :( So many more people did so much better than me! Urgh. I was almost on the verge of tears okay. Oh yeah, my overall is only 67.1% -____________-

Please, please, please, let me get into a Science class. T-T

Btw, my L1B4 is 7 and my L1R5 is 9. Woohoo. :D Okay, no big deal, it's not even Os, and secondary twos very easy to get such low scores, blahblahblah. Whatever. Don't point out the obvious! Let me divulge in my joy can or not?!

Okay, on to pictures :)






This picture a bit no point, but wait!

LOOK AT WHO IS IN THE BACKGROUND!!!



:D
Okay, after this I slept. :D Then we reached the place.




There's an even more candid picture of Zhiqing lor, HAHAHA. But it's in Jennifer's camera, pity! :B




Almost all the girls ... Jingting and Jasnyn are missing!



There's a photography contest actually, but I really can't be bothered about the competition. I do photography because I have a passion for it and not because I want to earn prizes. Sure, it'll gain you some recognition but I prefer getting it by, okay I don't know how to explain this, like, by myself, people recognizing my works as good and spreading them and thus by words of mouth, get more well-known.

Whatever, my explanation sucks.






Hello there 8)
HAHAHA I'm so uglyyyyyyyy.








You look up
You look down
You look right
You look left

Yet all you'll see is greenery.






Walking through this path was very ticklish. All those leaves brushing past your legs! Haha :D








I like this picture :B



Ahem,
Jennifer's new boyfriend :D




Ok I know, I brightened this picture too much already -_____-
Whatever, I was very tired! Still is, actually. :P



Would you believe it, they were singing! Hahaha. :D Videos at the end of the post.
And then it rained (great) and it was so cold! :(



I look very ugly HAHAHAHAHAHA whatever, and thats Jennifer's sad face, fyi.
Went to KFC to eat with Kennifer Bennifer JENNIFER.



I love Jasmine :)
Eh, pardon my ugliness lah. My hair was very screwed up cus ... well, caught in the rain. Anyway, JASMINE CUT HER FRINGE!!! AND SHE LET IT DOWN!!! LIKE FINALLY!!!

Okay, very tired now ... shall just upload videos [yes finally, Youtube is uploading them]
If you happen to click on them, ignore the titles. The Pt 1, Pt 2, part. I messed them all up.











Okay, have fun watching them. :D Took me 2 bloody hours just to blog this post, grr.
Gdbye :)

Sunday, October 19, 2008

The Internet is for porn





DUUUUUUUUUUUUDE, YOU JUST HAVE TO WATCH THIS. HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!!!

"You're a pervert!"

Forgiveness

Everyone deserves a second chance. :)

Shall reply tags here instead:

SHEENA. -

I forgive you. :) Why the need to copy my posts wholesale though? Lol.
There's no need to talk and I've seen your messages already. Haha. Will reply once I can put my feelings into words.

aaron -

You are such a gossipmonger -_-

emzskidoodles♥ -

Yeah, thats why I thought you should know! Haha. Well, she has apologized to you already :) Takecare!

JODI, Yuanying -

Yup, I couldn't believe it at first too. I thought it was some impersonator impersonating Sheena and trying to create trouble manzxs.

Passedby -

Tampines, right next to S11 foodcourt. :D It's quite near East View Sec. Idk the exact address :B

HUISHAN -

You and your chim english agaaaaaain ~

JENN -

Maybe :D And what Carolyn's quotes? HAHA. SHE GOT A LOT OKAY.
And no, Girl A is not you. :) I don't talk rubbish lor, I am full of wisdom and purity. 8) HAHAHHAA. Ahem. And OMG YOU'RE NOT FAT STOP IT WITH THE "I'M SO FAT" CUS YOU'RE NOT FAT. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT FAT AT ALL.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Words are meaningless

Words are just words.
I do not give a fuck about words, I do not give a fuck about "I mean what I say", I do not give a fuck about "This is the absolute truth", I do not give a fuck at all.

Understand?

You can dedicate a thousand posts to me, you can apologize to me a million times, yet I will not forgive you.

The second chance means nothing if nothing was learned from the first.

-

Just met Jennifer for dinner and we went to shop first :)
Can you believe it, $8 for an Aeropostale hoodie, $10 for a hoodie + pullover. It's like a factory outlet store!

Anyway, just found this picture of Huishan, Joanne and me.

My legs look so freaky ._.

The heart of the matter

How do you go from talking to someone everyday, to rarely acknowledging each other?

And why is it that you don't start loving someone until they're gone?

the smell of raw blood rose into the night. blood dripped down from her face, and it trickled down to her lips. she could taste blood now, the raw taste of blood. what was once a beautiful face was now disfigured and it was as if the mask she put on everyday had been torn away, revealing her inner ugliness.

she looked up at the stars; what used to be beautiful and a shining ray of hope for her. now she's looking up at them and thinking, "look at all those stars, look at how goddamn ugly they are."

-

I was so bored, decided to take out the spare candles in the house and played with fire :)
I only hate the part when I had to clean up, very irritating. :( All the burnt bits, and that my room smelt like it was burnt down. I sprayed perfume (HAHA) so that the smell will go away and won't make my brother suspect that I've been playing with, well, fire.

And the fact that I smell like smoke now.














And strangely, I wasn't scared of the fire, especially when it got bigger. I wasn't scared of the heat and I didn't felt pain when I accidentally brushed my hand against the fire. I didn't notice that my hands were covered with the wax from the candle, till I looked at my hands. :/

Oh yeah, and I dreamed that A and B broke up because A cheated on B and B was so hurt, he seek solace from me and then A was so angry, she started hurting me and doing things that made me look bad, etcetc ... and the ending of the dream, I died. LOOOOOOOL. I have funny dreams :)

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Pain is sempiternal

Alright, it was Ms Nah's birthday today :D
I'm just going to dump photos here again [typical], and let them speak for themselves. :D
























After school, Jennifer, Carolyn & I walked in the rain to S11.
Along the way, we stopped at this playground to play, hee.







Oh, and Jennifer is obviously acting lian in the last photo








The childishness of Jennifer. :D

Okay bye.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Depressing

I got back my results and it was so bad, I cried and cried and cried for like, I don't know exactly how long, but I cried till my eyes ached and my heart aches knowing that I can't get into a Science class now. No more 304 or 305. Even though I have the potential (as quoted from many teachers), my SA2 results just have to be this bad. Sigh.

Postscript:

Since most of you asked, here are my results.

English Paper 1 - ?
English Paper 2 - ?

Chinese Paper 1 - 18/70 [wtf]
Chinese Paper 2 - 80/130
Overall - 49/100

Maths Paper 1 - 23/40
Maths Paper 2 - 27/60
Overall - 51/100

Science - 55/100 [this was absolutely heartbreaking. i cried and cried and cried]

Literature - 79/100 [this too, was absolutely heartbreaking]

History - 70/100 [even MORE heartbreaking]

D&T - ?

Art - ?

I don't really care about my Chinese, and I knew my Maths would be horrible. But my Science was so unexpected. Even Mdm Khalidah said, "I didn't expect you to get this kind of results, you are one of my better students." Ms Quek too, she was like, "You actually have the potential to be a pure science student."

And my Literature and History, ohmygod. I dropped from a 96 to 79 in Literature, dropped from a 92 to 70 in History. How can I not be upset?!

My results are so horrible. Can someone please shoot me?

Monday, October 13, 2008

Very itchy

I don't know why but every night, at like 10pm, my legs will start breaking out in rashes, so there'll blotchy red spots all over.
Then the next morning it's gone, but by night, it'll come back.

Damn irritating, AND VERY ITCHY + PAINFUL. :(
And I thought my rashes gone already lor!! Wahlau DAD MY RASHES ARE BACK THE MEDICINES FROM THE DOCTORS A FEW YEARS AGO DIDN'T WORK I'VE RELAPSED HAHAHA OMG VERY ITCHY AND PAIN LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :(

You change your mind like a girl changes her clothes

I don't like it when I play a practical joke on someone and they end up getting so fucking pissed off by it, they cut off all contacts. Touchy much?

And this is not the first time. Okay, I, Weiling Rai, solemnly swear never to joke around with people anymore because everyone is just that fucking sensitive. :D I hope everyone is happy now.

Had streaming talk during STARS. :( Sigh, hope I get into the class I want.

Anyway, Jennifer came over just now [okay, I swear this is becoming like a ritual]. So please, she has access to my MSN Messenger, so if you recieve any stupid messages like, "I LOVE YOU" or "LETS STEAD" or "I HATE YOU LETS BREAK UP", its definitely not me. :)

Pig sleeping on my bed.

Anyway, around 7pm she went off. And LOL omg okay she was talking about how short the school skirts are nowadays and ...



`` iiexs ams sh00 ad0rabbles . x33 :DD ~

"NOT SHORT ENOUGH!!!!!1 THE SKIRT MUST BE LIKE ONE STRIP LIKE THAT!"

screams Jennifer.



HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!


Eh Carolyn, "ahlianhood". HAHAHAHAHA.
Ahem, rest assure I am not like that and my skirt is just above my knee. :)

Oh yeah, I left the photos unedited and untouched because people claim that I've been photoshopping myself thinner. -_______________- I'M SO FREE MEH?!?!

Oh yes, got back some of my results today!

Maths Paper 1 - 23/40 [just managed to scrape by]
Literature - 79/100 [second in class, Nisaa got first :( depressing]

I can soooo wait for tomorrow. :D

I am very upset today la, thats why my post very short. Okay bye!
AND CAROLYN YOU BETTER COMMENT ON THIS POST HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

(H)



My bangs are getting too long, its time to snip them off.
I have quite a lot of pictures to post but I'm lazy :(



Yesterday was dinner at my grandmother's house with family and friends. :D
Pictures posted later, very lazy now.
Talked with Liana until like, 10.30pm and then went home. I was so sleepy, so I just went to shower and then went to sleep, but I couldn't sleep. So I called Jennifer first, then Albert, talked till like, I don't know, 1am+ then I went to sleep [finally].

Hee, let me tell you guys what he [Albert] told me yesterday night :D

"I'm so hot. I feel so hot."


:B

Then this morning I was woken up at an inhumane time of 9.30am to go to my ahma's house. :( I swear I am damn exhausted now and I seriously want to sleep but I have household chores to do, ohwell.

Don't like it when people use ily/ilu. Might as well say the whole thing out right, these type of things you just can't (and don't) half fuck around. I also think if you say it too much, it loses its meaning after a while because it sort of becomes a habit to say it so you just say it out of habit and not because you seriously, sincerely mean it.

I need to cut down on expletives.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Some mornings you forget I exist

I am so entertained by this little bitch that I just have to post about it!

Apparently, I am a "farking copybitch" because I use kthnxbai/kthnxbye and she uses it too!

...............................

(inserts WHATTHEFUCK face here)



A Google search for 'kthnxbai'.



So you're the only one that uses 'kthnxbai' and anyone else that uses it is "copying" you?



Another search on 'kthnxbye'



Wow, so an approximate of 90,000+ people are copying you?

I'm sorry, but sweetheart, you're so fucking stupid that no one wants to copy you.


First of all, you are still prancing around in those stupid clothes of yours. Skull, stripes, crowns, Little Miss, WHATEVER. Honey, those clothes are so last year. You want to wear them at home, fine. I admit that I still wear those Starbucks tee and Little Miss tees, but only at home or if I'm going nearby (like Tampines Mall to buy food or something). I don't go to town with them. Neither do I take pictures of them [or my newest buys] and go all, "Lalala, my new clothes ~ ! ;DD"

Second of all, you call your boyfriend 'baby'. Usually I don't give a fuck, but you call him 'baby Jason'. 'Jason baby' is fine, but 'baby Jason' is like telling everyone your boyfriend is LITERALLY a baby and you're a paedophile.

Oh wait - you are a paedophile. You take pictures of yourself kissing your baby cousins on the lips. Who the fuck does that?! I kiss my baby cousins too, but only when they were just born! AFTER THAT NO MORE KISSES + I DON'T EVEN TAKE PICTURES OF THAT.

Eh, no one wants to see pictures of you and your boyfriend kissing either. Or licking each another tongues. Or sucking each another tongues.

Third of all, your language. If you are like what, 11 or 12 years old, whatever. But hello, you're fucking SIXTEEN and you still type like a fucking TWIT. What are you, mentally retarded? I is I, not 'iie'. Me is Me, not 'miiex'. You is You, not 'euu'.

Fourth of all, your nicknames. Quoted from your profile, "IIE AM A BLURR S0ToNGGx ~." And the captions on your pictures ... "crazy little kiddo", "th pain will nvr go aways", "(inserts random date) ilys baby", etcetc.

Yes, it is your prerogative since it is your life, your opinions, and not mine.
But since you've criticized me, I am not going to exercise any restraint or idly sit back and ignore your insults. I am NOT going to do that.

You have absolutely no rights to call me a 'copybitch' or a 'copymeow' without proof.
Nor can you say I am 'stepping angmoh' just by typing good english, unlike you, on my blog.

HAHAHAHAHA!!! I am a "fat bitch" ?! I am 41.5kg and 158cm. I am near to being underweight.



These are my thighs.

Fat? No. Maybe a bit chubby, but fat? No. :)

Your insults are all proven wrong and what more do you have to say now?

Oh, and as quoted from your blog [which I have already closed and I can't be bothered to go back and copy and paste, so here it is in my language], "I curse you and your stead to break up !~"

Sorry, but a curse like that won't work at all. At least we've lasted for 9 months and more to come, but how about yours? Only 2 weeks and you've already broken up with him once during the 2 weeks. Don't insult my relationship when yours is even worse than mine.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Dasara :D



I like the flowers! Esp the one at the bottom right. It's white and streaked with pink! So cute. :D



Awwwwwwwwwwwwww :)
My paternal grandparents!



I like the smoke effects :)



Uncle, Aunt, Cousin :)







My ugly brother HAHAHAHAHA







As a form of blessing, we're supposed to have sticky, dyed (usually red or pink) rice pasted on our foreheads.



Baby cousin. Youngest in the family. Probably the most spoilt too.
Then Maya is the second youngest and the most vain. She is very vain!! We're celebrating as family only, so there was no need to dress up, but she wanted to wear a white dress and later on, put on sparkly, glitter bangles.

My vainness is nothing compared to her. Nothing.

We're having another one this Saturday, but this time with family friends. Need to dress up, bah.



Monica didi being blessed! :)



She looks so happy here :D

Anyway, so the grandparents had to bless their children and grandchildren first.
And now it's the children's (husbands') turn to bless their wives and children! :)

My uncle first ...



My aunt. She looks so happy here too, HAHA.

My father's turn ...



I know my thighs are fat lah.

My [another] uncle's turn ...





My dad told me to take more of my baby cousins!
See, she went to put on glittery bangles!! VAIN. :x



Recieving angbaooooooos

Hee, I collected a total of $126 :D



There are more statues and displays at the side, but I was lazy to take allll of them.



Ugly brothers, HEEEEEE. :x
Ok la my brother and cousin but in my family we all regard each another as brothers and sisters, regardless of whether we're blood-related or not and regardless of whether we're siblings or cousins :D



Bye :)

Reasons

why you should not ask your boyfriend to do your Art for you:





Thats why. :)

Read between the lines



Just say what you mean and mean what you say. Don't expect me to read your mind and don't play games with my head or my heart. Don't tell me half-truths and expect truth when the full truth comes out. Half-truths are no better than lies. Don't ignore me if you care for me; indifference hurts more than angry words.

It hurts way more than you think it does.

Anyway, a few days ago ...




Went out with my family to eat at the hawker center near my house and I loveeee the bittergourd soup there. :D I also love the cereal prawns and the sweet and sour pork. And the deer meat!!! I am a food junkie and I cannot lie. :D

+ some pictures from yesterday, y'know, the one where Jennifer was using my clothes and dressing up as an ahlian, HAHA.



Went to some void deck to eat. :D
Both of them ignoring me, one reading 8 Days magazine, another reading the Low Kay Hua's novel. :(

Jennifer is so contradictory lor, she claims that Low Kay Hua is a stupid author and that his book titles are stupid [I believe you] and that his stories are so cliche and lame, blahblah ... BUT SHE STILL READ. Tsk! :x

I like the quote, "In love, either you love or you don't" in the book, then she was like exclaiming how stupid it is. Stupid meh?




And if you're my best friend ... you'll have thousands of your candid pictures put up on my blog. Hee. :x I HAVE A LOT OF JENNIFER'S. Next is Najeera's, then Carolyn's, then Albert's, HAHAHAHAHAHA.

I am so nice and kind and angelic. 8)

You said you would call but you never called at all

I remember I have something to do or somewhere to go to, but I just can't remember what.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Its over, why is it over



I just keep coming across all these blogs that keep asking 'what is love' and 'how does love feels like' and I think it's damn stupid, especially when they have a boyfriend.

If you have a boyfriend, what is love and how does love feels like shouldn't be a question at all. You love your boyfriend, right? That's love. How does he make you feel? That's love.

If you're in love with someone, the same thing goes. If you're not in love, but you're asking all these questions, then fall in love. You'll get hurt, but it's a learning experience. You're never too young to fall in love, don't believe what people say. Teenager love is the best kind of love to have, the simplest kind, the sweetest kind.

And if you just argued with your boyfriend, don't wait for him to apologize. You claim that you love him, so why wait? Just go ahead and say it. If you claim that you've apologized way too often, then why do you bother to stay in this relationship then? You deserve the love that you want. All of us do. But if you keep sticking to the love you don't want, then you'll never get the love you want.

Love hurts, no, it doesn't. What happens during love hurts, but it's worth the pain, all the same. Sometimes, we must hurt in order to grow and we must fall in order to know. Sometimes our vision only clears after our eyes are washed with tears.

Don't hold back if you want to let go of someone just because you love them. If you want to let go of them, then you don't love them, really. You don't. Face it, you just DON'T love them if you say you want to let go of them. What do you mean, for their happiness? How do you know they're not happy with you? Everyone gets unhappy with each another once in a while, you just have to work it through. Relationships can never be perfect, there are bound to be arguments and tears and anger and confusion. You are supposed to face through all of these adversities and overcome these obstacles, instead of GIVING UP just like a hopeless fool. You just might have lost the best love of your life.

Stop assuming things either. Everyone tends to get insecure. These pangs of insecurity is due to jealousy, and this is NORMAL in a relationship.

"In my opinion, in my opinion" ... yes, your opinion. It means you're ASSUMING something, you don't know if it's TRUE or not. Why don't you just ask that person? "In my opinion, you don't love me." "In my opinion, you don't trust me." "In my opinion, you've never truly meant what you've said." But is it true? NOOOOOOOOOOOO. Okay, it might be, but do you know FOR SURE that it's true?!

I hate assumptions.

I think they're horrible things that makes worse a relationship. Having your own opinions are good, but they're not necessarily true. Claiming that they are true, then jeopardizing your own relationship, then BLAMING your other half for it ... well, that's just plain retarded.

Look, I don't go around saying "YOU DON'T LOVE MEEE!!" (sometimes I do, but I'm only joking what!!! ALSO NOT LIKE I REALLY MEAN IT) and then claiming that it's TRUE. I know it's NOT. Doubting one's love is probably one of the meanest things you can do, so I have NEVER doubt anyone's love before.

Clarification: I jokingly say that to people sometimes, like Snorlax. For fun only mah!

Okay, I don't know why I'm talking so much here -.-
Just very annoyed. Shall stop.

I'm damn hungry lor, it's 8:46pm and I haven't eaten a single thing since like, 3pm. :( My whole family are out enjoying themselves, leaving poor me alone at home. With nothing to eat. I eaten everything already please, all the bak kwa, all the biscuits, all the cereal ... HAHA, I SOUND LIKE SUCH A PIG.

I don't have to go to school tomorrow, it's Home Econs paper, and I'm in D&T ... so I'm not going. :) Finally, I can sleep in late. I don't know why my parents get pissed off me when I sleep till like 1pm or 2pm.

Hello, just because I'm young doesn't mean I have no stress or whatever. -.- You have more, yes, but you know how to deal with it, I don't. I'm still young. What kind of stress do I have? Oh, how about ... the pressure you give me to be a good daughter [even though I already am trying], to have good results, from my friends to be a good friend [but it seems like I am never good enough, isn't it? Hmmm], from my teachers to continue doing well in subjects I am currently scoring well in, etcetc.

Gee, whatever. I'm very hungry and grumpy.
Byeeeeee.

(Btw, I'm damn happy now! HAHAHAHAHAHA.)

Why do stars fall down from the sky, everytime you walk by?

HELLO GUYS! :D

I am very happy today because it is the end of exams :D Okay, not yet, but who cares about Art. :x Hee. Anyway, Carolyn and Jennifer came over to my house today. We were supposed to do our Art but we couldn't be bothered so we ended up slacking. Jennifer started taking my clothes and dressing up in them. -_______-

Btw I can't be bothered to photoshop these pictures and adjust the brightness + contrast because I am very lazy today. :B Hee. Don't mind ah.







Can't get as retarded? OH WAIT TILL YOU SEE THIS!



Stripe cardigan are coolzxszxs (NOT).
I know I'm very ugly lah. Sorry lor, I was damn tired and oily. :x

Then she started going insane.





As you can see, she got hold of my Guides bearing (hat) and my green musical hoodie.

Clothes are purposely unmatched, btw.



One last one. Hee. :B
I like these pictures leh!!! I think its because Jennifer looks damn pretty. HAHAHA.

Btw Snorlax, this is why Jennifer told you on MSN we were playing dressup.

Then at like 2:15pm, Carolyn went home and Jennifer and I went to eat at Nihon Mura again. My treat! Because I am a wonderful friend, heeee. :B She left for Newton to go for her French tuition and I went to the bank to transfer money! :D My Supre skirt, yay yay yay yay yay!



My room is sooooooooo messy :(
MY TABLE IS FILLED WITH NOTES + PRETTY BASKETS CONTAINING ALL SORTS OF BEADS, STRINGS, PINS, BUTTONS, ZIPPERS, ETC :D

Shall clear them all up as soon as I'm not so lazy. :B My parents are already saying my hygiene level is as good as a boy. And that I behave like a pig!!! And that my room is like a pig sty. A LOT OF COMMENTS HOR?!

Byeeeeeee :D

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Short update

I am still awake at this inhumane hour [4.37am] just to study.
I woke up at 3.45am please -____________-

Bah, I better pass.

Monday, October 6, 2008

:(

I just started a new, private blog because I have a lot to say, but I just can't say them out here because they'll (obviously) offend people.

You can ask me for the URL if you want ... but I won't tell you. Unless I'm in a super good mood. Haha. No use asking me for it, I won't tell you. :)

I'm very sad now, I don't like people who uses "-.-" or "whatever" on me. Find it very rude. Why am I sensitive? Lol.

Bye.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Airporttt







I swear, Carolyn is pretty when she ties her hair up; super pretty when she lets it down.
And that stupid (:x) Juexin lost so much weight!!!!! :(

Aiyah, lazy to blog in detail already la. I woke up late, met them late, and then we studied at Popeyes (LOVE THE FRIES THERE) and then walked around, then settled down at Coffee Bean to study, Jennifer joined us, went to Popeyes to eat [actually, only Jennifer] and then Mark and Guoxiong came while Juexin left then Albert also came.

Left with Jennifer early, since I had to be back before 7.30pm for dinner.

You want more details? Go see Juexin's blog! http://selfdelusion-x.blogspot.com :D




I was bored ... check out my bunny face :D



Oh yeah, this afternoon while I was looking through my history notes, Bert called me and told me he jumped from the second storey and fractured his right foot. So now he has to use crutches. -__________________-

And why did he jumped from the second storey? Because he was in a girl's room and the parents were home and they didn't allowed boys to be in their daughter's room [OR SOMETHING LA, CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO HEAR THE EXPLAINATION] and so he jumped.

-_____________________________________________-

Silly silly silly silly silly silly SILLY SMALL BOY.

Stand in the rain


I thought you were better than this. I thought you were different. I thought you would understand me.

Emphasize: thought.

I thought you knew what I hated this kind of behaviour. I thought you knew that I am unhappy with you. I thought you knew that I hate bailing people out of trouble.

Emphasize: thought.
When people do not want to tell you anything about their problems, it's fine.
When I don't want to tell them about my problems AND THEY KICK SUCH A FUSS OVER IT, it's not fine.

Irritated. "You're always irritated. -.-" Well, maybe I won't be always IF YOU'RE NOT SUCH PAIN IN THE FUCKING ASS.

............. wanted to blog about yesterday when I went out with my girl friends to study but seriously, no mood now.
WEILING WHY CAN'T YOU LIKE JUST DIE?!

Saturday, October 4, 2008

ABUSEEEEE

★ albert, says (11:03 PM):
I wanna marry you lol.
★ albert, says (11:04 PM):
I want to see how you'll scream when you're giving birth HAHAHA :x


See la, how nice my boyfriend is.

!$(&@*$^&@

I AM SO FUCKING PISSED OFF.

I have no connection now so I’m typing this in Microsoft Word.

ANYWAY, I’M LIKE, SO PISSED OFF NOW.

I was coaching Najeera History, when suddenly my fucking wonderful connection HAD to just go fucking HAYWIRE and so I disconnected.

So, I asked my brother who was playing some lame war craft game to help me reset the connection since I needed to help my friend. He refused, said he don’t know how, that I knew how, and that he wants to play his game.

What the fuck.

He resetted the connection for me before, I DO NOT FUCKING KNOW HOW, BECAUSE IF I FUCKING DO, WHY THE FUCK WOULD I FUCKING ASK HIM, and so a FUCKING COMPUTER GAME IS MORE FUCKING IMPORTANT THAN YOUR SISTER, YOUR BLOOD-RELATED SISTER?!

THIS IS WHAT I HATE SO MUCH ABOUT MEN – THEIR PRORITIES ARE SO FUCKING MESSED UP THAT IT’S SO FUCKING ANNOYING!!!!!!!

I mean, SERIOUSLY?! I know I know, I once said everyone is entitled to their own opinions or thoughts. But tell me – playing a game is more important than helping a family member.

How ridiculous is that?

Win liao lor, win liao lor.

What the fuck more can I fucking say. His life, so it’s his decisions right. Like that how, you tell me. -_________________-

…………

I’M FUCKING PISSED OFF STILL LA.

Why people have such nice siblings who dote on them so much …
While mine doesn’t even give a flying fuck about me?

Isn’t that so sad. Lol. Elder sibling supposed to look out for young sibling. Help them when they need it. Supposed to love them. Why do the men in my life always turn out abusing me. Why why why why why why.

FUCKING HELL LA FUCKING PISSED OFF.

Why the fuck should I even cry. Cry for some fucking idiot who doesn’t even give a fuck about me. WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I CARE FOR HIM TOO? It isn’t fair. NOTHING IS EVER FAIR. Why must I keep giving in. IS IT TOO MUCH TO JUST GIVE IN TO ME FOR ONCE?!

SELFISH, SELFISH, SELFISH.

Everyone is selfish. Nobody cares about you 100%. TOO BUSY CARING FOR THEMSELVES TO CARE FOR YOU. FOR ME. ME.

I DON’T WANT TO HELP ANYONE ANYMORE, THIS REALLY DISAPPOINTS ME, WHEN PEOPLE DO NOT HELP ME AT ALL BUT INSTEAD FUCKING LAUGH AT MY PROBLEM. WHEN I’VE BEEN HELPING THEM ALL ALONG.

It's at times like this, I really wish I would just die.

Friday, October 3, 2008

If you fall, I'll catch you



MY BROTHER IS WAS SO CUTEEE, HEHEHEE. :)

He's the one beside me!!

See that blue colour plushie with yellow (fake) hair? I MISS THAT TOY LA!!!
It is squishy and it has some sort of filling inside so you can mould the toy to any shape you want! Just that its very easy to burst. :( It used to be very popular!! Every kid had one! I was holding one too but my cousin's big head blocked it. He's holding it also lor! But can only see the red hair.

Ok, I bought it in Australia [this was taken in Australia btw] so maybe it wasn't very popular in Singapore but whatever. ITS VERY CUTEEEEE.

Why suddenly stop selling ah? :(
Saddening.

Oh yeah ... had Literature exam today! I think I'll fail Section D. It was very badly done. :( What to do, what to doooo. Hopefully my marks for CA2 will pull me up! :) I got 96 for my CA2! Hahaha. Sorry ah, I'm not very modest when it comes to my results.

There's a bell on my house keys!! I like the tintinnabulation, its quite soothing :)
Btw, I think I'm suffering from xenophobia :B

Alright bye :)
1 more week till EOYs are over, yaaaaay

Thursday, October 2, 2008

We're all so much stronger than I ever thought possible


I just realized I miss my primary school days a lot.

-

"Maybe some friendships aren’t meant to be saved. Maybe we’re meant to spend a certain part of our lives with certain people and then move on."

Why can't you just tell me the truth?
Why do you always have to lie?
It's like you don't even trust me anymore.
It's like you don't even care.

I need to pour out this expansive dose of words but I just can't explain. I need to be alone. I know the timing isn't great, but these things, you just can't plan. I just need a little time so I can find myself again because I get buried underneath all the things they think you are, and I'm too tired to pretend it doesn't hurt.

You can never find the right person if you can never let go of the wrong, but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve ... but what do I deserve?

Kiss me, under the milky twilight

She never slows down
She doesn't know why but she knows that when she's all alone, feels like its all coming down
She won't turn around
The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down


Um hi this will be quite a long post, haha.

But first, today's events.

I walked to school today because my ezlink card has no money left inside (HINTHINTHINT) and then it started to drizzle and the whole time I was walking, the only phrase that went through my head was: "Please don't rain please don't rain please don't rain" and ... it didn't, just light drizzle.

If God exists, He must really love me :p HAHA.
Joking x2, no offense too :D

It was super slack today! :) No exams. So during Chinese, I did the paper she gave us (I got 14/25, woo) and then I did Science notes, and since she didn't noticed, I just plugged into my MP3. How can she not notice?! My earphones are HOT PINK!!!

Its not an ahlian colour okay! >:(

Anyway.

Blahblahblah watched some French movie for English blahblahblah assembly I tutored Juexin history blahblahblah end of school!

Anyway. Moving on to angrier stuffs.

I don't see why I must always give in to people when I say out my opinions and if they disagree with it, they'll scream and shout and tell me how stupid I am.

I am entitled to my own opinions, no matter how "heartless" or "stupid" it is!
My opinions, NOT YOURS.

Let's say ... a few weeks ago, I was talking to my vegetarian primary school friend. She told me that killing and eating animals are wrong. I said, "Its perfectly alright what." She then proceed to scream on the phone, "ITS NOT FUCKING ALRIGHT!!! WHAT ARE YOU, HEARTLESS OR SOMETHING???"

....... *speechless

I was so pissed off and I was crying out of anger.
Everyone is meant to die. Even if we leave them to be, they'll still die. So why not eat them? It's their fate! It's their fate to be eaten by us non-vegetarian human beings!

For clarification, I am not for animal torture. I am totally against it. I hate people who kill these animals ... slowly. Torture it for a long while, then kill it. I am against that. I also am against wearing animal skin. I'm just not against eating animals.

Yes, they don't deserve to be eaten, they did not do us any wrong. Its very unfair. Yet, is life ever fair?

There's this girl in my school. Primary school or secondary school, its up to you to guess. She's smart, skinny and tall. So she is quite pretty, not totally, but quite. But the only problem is that she is not nice. She forces people to do things for her, without waiting for the person to say yes/no. People told her not to do this and that, she still do this and that.

But she still has a lot of friends. When she cries, they crowd around her, tell her not to cry, give her tissue, give her sweets, doing everything they can to coax her not to cry.

Then, there's another girl in my school. Like I said, primary or secondary, its up to you to guess. She's smart and tall, but plump. She is quite pretty too. She is really nice. But because of a thing known as superficiality, when she cries, only a few people (like 3 - 4) go to her, and try to console her, to tell her that everything is okay, and not to cry anymore.

Tell me ... is it fair?
A pretty but mean girl gets more attention than a not as pretty but really nice girl, just because she's pretty.

I am speaking in a majority kind of view. In my view, the latter girl is way prettier than the former. :) Um, if you don't know what latter/former is, then in my view, the 'not as pretty' but really nice girl is prettier than the 'pretty' but mean girl.

Okay, I've totally shifted topic. But the point is that, LIFE IS NOT FAIR.
Not fair for us, NOT FAIR FOR THE ANIMALS EITHER!

YOU JUST THINK THAT THIS IS HEARTLESS BECAUSE I AM NOT AGREEING WITH YOU.


There are no definite answers in this world. There is always 2 sides for a cause, one thats FOR it, one thats AGAINST it. No one is EVER right, because THERE WILL ALWAYS BE MORE REASONINGS THAN ANSWERS!!

Like the existence of God/Jesus! I don't believe in it. I think it's just all a story, a very nice story, fabricated by human.
Its just all quite contradicting; if God is all-forgiving and kind and can't bear to see us suffer and love us all, why is there Hell? Why are there starving orphans? Why are there homeless families? Why are there diseases? Why are there so much evil? It goes on and on.

Btw, Girl A has Girl B and Girl C and Girl D as her bestfriends.
She spends more time with Girl C and they are quite close and they've been through way more than Girl B and Girl D.
But Girl A lists Girl B first, Girl D second, and Girl C last.

Why?

Because Girl C is very opinionated and has different opinions than Girl A and they often disagree, so Girl A don't like Girl C very much because Girl C is not as submissive.


This makes me very sad, for some reason.
Btw, this is not me and my friends, its my friend and her clique.

Digressing, you want me to respect your opinions when you can't even respect mine?! I've respected yours, and I didn't said you were STUPID for having that kind of opinion. BUT YOU TOTALLY DISRESPECTED MINE!

Digressing [once again], whenever someone tell me I should respect them because they're older than me, or they're my elder, I WANT NOTHING MORE THAN TO GRIP THEM ON THE SHOULDER AND SHAKE THEM AWAKE.

Respect.Must.Be.Earned!

You are NOT going to get any of MY respect if you do NOT respect me!
I don't give a flying fuck if you're older than me! Or if you have more 'status' in the world than me!

Even if you're Lee Kuan Yew, if you look down on me, I'll look down on you too.


Why? Why should I bother proving myself to you, that I am indeed worth respect?
WHY?????

I always respect everyone, but if you don't respect me, then I'll just lose all respect for you.

I also cannot stand it when people do not respect my decisions!

Look, I do what I want, this is my life, not yours. You are not going to control my life, make me do things your way or force me to change!

I am entitled to my own decisions, my own opinions ...
and you have to respect it!


As simple as that!

I am not perfect; neither are you. You have absolutely no rights to pick on my flaws, unless you're 100% perfect.

I'm sorry if you think I talk too much but I believe strongly in this quote:

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."


I can't live my life for other people. I have to do what's right for me.
I know that everyone I meet is fighting a hard battle, so I try not to add on to their burdens. Most of the time when I'm unhappy, I just keep it to myself. I just apologize like the fool that I am. But heaping insults on me ain't going to ease any struggles you're having. And I have my limits; I will explode soon enough.

It's alright if you disagree with my opinions, but it's not alright if you're going to call me stupid/heartless/brainless just because our opinions clashes.

Like for this post ... if you want to rebuke to this, then please do so. It'll be fun reading something that opposes my thoughts. I am very willing to change my opinions if you can convince me. But if you're just going to go all, "I just read this stupid post from Weiling, it's like so dumb, what the hell was she thinking -.-", then I'm sorry but you're immature as hell and I'm not going to listen to what you have to say.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

I was kidnapped real young by the sweet taste of love

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCE!!!!
I LOVE YOU :D

TODAY I WENT TO CHANGI AIRPORT T3 WITH SHANSHAN & JOJO
THEN WE WENT TO CAROLYN'S HOUSE TO STUDY AND JENNIFER JOINED US TOO
AND THEN JENNIFER AND I HAD DINNER TOGETHER AT A RANDOM FOODCOURT
AND I ACCOMPANIED HER TO COLLECT PHOTOS THEN TO HER BUS STOP
AND I SENT HER OFF!

Its very late now (lessons tomorrow, sigh) so just some pictures + little captions

At TCC :D





Supposed to be candids of Huishan but ... look at my ugly face -__-


Jojo look like a mouse here!!

Shanshan was camera shy today


My mouth -_____________-

At Carolyn's house :D


Oh it was really funny because Shanshan & Jojo didn't know Carolyn at all, they just came because they wanted to stalk me :o
Then Jennifer came and we started bitching about some bitches in our school hee :)

We attempted to study and it was successful ... for a while, anyway



They are leavinggggg

SHANSHAN, JENNIFER SAID YOU ARE VERY PRETTY :)

Anyway we sent them off and then we went back and I wanted to study but couldn't be bothered anymore so we used the computer. Okay they used but I was taking pictures hee :B


Got lots more, but shall spare you the agony
Anyway then we (Jennifer & I) left at like 7.20pm and we went to eat at some random foodcourt at this community club

On the way x2




Hi I am Retarded how about you?

"OH I AM A MODEL"
and she proceeds to swing her hair ... HAHA!

Then we ate and we left

Last photo with her before she went off

I've a video of her saying "I JUST FARTED TEEHEE" and I shall upload it soon, >:)

Home sweet home

Literature exams this Friday, I cannot wait! I hope I do well this time and top the level for Lit again :) I love Lit I love English I love Science I love Hist!!

Sometimes pain becomes such a big part of your life that you expect it to be always there, because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't