Thanks a lot for making me feel so insignificant. Thanks a whole fucking lot.

When was crying an indication that you are weak? Ever since birth, it has been a sign that you're alive.

I want to be okay again

No sweetie, don't worry, you didn't hurt me.

You completely destroyed me.
Sometimes I wonder why I do so damn much for you when by now, I should know that you will never go to such boundaries for me. I am sick of doing so much and not being recognized for my sacrifices for you. I know I can't please you, but don't be such an ingrate.
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A lot of pictures today! Shall upload the ones I like first. :p I need to download Photoscape again! :(


Namnam. :D
During F&N!






Playing Twister with Najeera! :D
Alicia's pose damn classic btw, the picture below.





Alicia specifically requested for this photo and also demanded that I post it up with the caption -


"MY HAIR IS VERY LONG UP TO MY ASS."

:D Kk bye~

: D says (11:29 PM):
hahaha
ok la
weiling is a ideal girlfriend
: D says (11:30 PM):
its junhao's 50000year luck to get you
=o

Seoul Garden

Went to Seoul Garden to celebrate Jolene's birthday early! ALMOST DIED THERE. We were there from like 3pm till 7pm and we had our lunch and dinner there and the staffs kept giving us dirty looks! And we kept on taking food, I swear I am damn bloated now even though I already went to the toilet 2 times. LOL. :p

And we played Truth or Dare! Bloody hell Juexin ate ice cream with chili and other weird toppings -_- Damn gross! I did truth all the way because the dares are rly gross!! So yeah now we all know each other secrets. :O Carolyn revealed a lot :p Ditto for me -_- Now all of them think I am a pervert boo :(

Oh yeah Jolene and Juexin went home first, and they took 1 hour to get ready! Waited for them for ONE HOUR! Oh my god. T_T

Pictures! :D

































Left at about 7pm, and walked around before we parted ways. Reached home at 8pm :D
Had a great afternoon (and evening) with them! :D:D Jolene is going to be halfway to 30 in a few hours, woo ^^

LEARNING IS A GIFT. EVEN WHEN PAIN IS YOUR TEACHER.
LEARNING IS A GIFT. EVEN WHEN PAIN IS YOUR TEACHER.
LEARNING IS A GIFT. EVEN WHEN PAIN IS YOUR TEACHER.
LEARNING IS A GIFT. EVEN WHEN PAIN IS YOUR TEACHER.
LEARNING IS A GIFT. EVEN WHEN PAIN IS YOUR TEACHER.

HI HUISHAN, I AM SO SORRY I COULDN'T MAKE IT TODAY! HOPE YOU RECEIVED MY SMS BECAUSE I DIDN'T RECEIVE A REPLY. HOPE YOU'RE NOT PISSED AT ME. :( I IS SORRY SO SORRY SO SO SO SO SORRY!!!! IIES LURBS LURBS EUUS OKIIES !!!!!!! (R)w(R)

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I created a blog for fun ystd ^^ http://p-oise.blogspot.com :D

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Alicia came to school today with her fringe down and I couldn't recognize her man! She look better (not prettier HEHE) :p

Tomorrow I am going to Seoul Garden with my schoolmates to celebrate Jolene's birthday! :D Am going to be broke again. Need to start selling off clothes after today -.- It really sucks to be responsible for your own finance and it really sucks that my parents are getting more and more unreasonable. :/

Oh yeah problems erupted at my mother's side again. -.- Can't stand my uncles. I am like, what, 30 years younger than them yet I can handle my own finance much better than them. *snorts*


Failed to get a proper picture so asked Justin!


Better! :D
Fariz fails at acting cute.

Also, some pictures from a nong, nong time ago~


During Jennifer's birthday, when Carolyn & I went all the way to Houg to spend time with her (and Noppi)! :D Oh and that's a picture of her laughing hysterically at a story I was telling. ^^



This was when Jennifer dragged me to J.CO to have doughnuts! At first I didn't want to go, but she told me about how it was one of the few things that reminds her of home so I felt bad. Then she proceeded to ignore me to read 8 Days and I didn't feel bad anymore. :D And the second picture is when Jennifer and I went to Bugis and we had dinner at Cafe Cartel! :D And we were like, "Omg what if we don't have enough money again? Call Albert!!!! HAHAHAHA."


This was a few days ago when she came all the way from Houg to visit me because she was bored! We went to Pizza Hut to have dinner and she was eating very self-consciously because she said eating with her hands is so tak glam and she needed to look pretty to attract male admirers (haha ok actually she didn't say that).

Ok I am done! BYEBYE. :D

I am surprised no one has realized what a horrible person you are yet. You're just one big contradiction. You might be nice, but that's all just an act, isn't it little girl? :) You bloody sicken me with your hypocrisy and your pretentious acts of kindness. You really are the epitome of the line 'the prettiest people do the ugliest things.' You're pretty, really, but you're also pretty hideous inside.

Anyway, on a lighter note, proof that Carolyn loves me! :D

See! IT IS TATTOOED ON HER ARMS! :D

Oh yeah I also like my new watch :B


Ok bye!

"My name is Hermoine Granger. Yours?"
"Uhm, Ron Weasley."
"... Pleasure."

I rly love the first movie for HP! They're all so adorable and cuddly! :D

Oh btw came across this article: Man Commits Suicide After Learning Harry Potter Spoiler.
Can't believe that such a hardcore fan actually exists! Ok he's not existing anymore actually... oh well.

Tests and projects all coming up. Sigh :(

It takes courage for one to 'fess up to his own mistakes, something which you unfortunately do not possess. You've fucked up on so many counts, and you still want to push the blame on to me. It's amusing how much you try to keep up on your slipping facade. Your face seem to be melting - oh wait, that's just your mask. You might want to touch up on your make up. Your lies are lovely; how you managed to deceive me - us - for so long is beyond me. But somehow you fucked up and now the truth is out, so why are you still trying to grasp on to your non existent dignity? Everyone knows, we're just sympathizing with you. You are weak, we all know that. That's why we just pretend not to know what you are doing, but sweetie, newsflash: we live not to please you. Are you sick of acting, because we sure are.

The prettiest people do the ugliest thing.

Update update!

My comp crashed recently (THANK MY GOD FATHER FOR SAVING ALL MY PICTURES SO I'VE NOT LOST ALL MY MEMORIES), so I haven't been online for a few eons (haha ok exaggeration) but I'm back :D Anyway I can't sms anymore, my handphone bills are so bad that my dad has confiscated my phone :( So if you want to contact me, just call my house! I won't be online for the next few eons as well, because I'm busy with projects ^^

Pictures taken over the last few weeks:

















OK DONE BAIBAIS! :D

Today will be my last day as a rape victim, and my first day as a rape survivor.

"I'm in love with her!"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uu4c1FfQlOw&feature=related

Ron Weasley: It's beautiful, isn't it? The moon.
Harry Potter: Divine. Had ourselves a little late night snack, did we?
Ron Weasley: It was on your bed, the box, I just thought I'd try one.
Harry Potter: Or twenty.
Ron Weasley: I can't stop thinking about her, Harry.
Ron Weasley: Honestly, you know, I reckon she was starting to annoy you.
Ron Weasley: She could never annoy me. I think I love her.
Harry Potter: Oh... brilliant.
Ron Weasley: Do you think she knows I exist?
Harry Potter: Well, I'd bloody well hope so, she's been snogging you for three months.
Ron Weasley: Snogging? Who are you talking about?
Harry Potter: Who are you talking about?
Ron Weasley: Romilda, of course. Romilda Vane.
Harry Potter: Okay, very funny.
Ron Weasley: [throws the chocolates box at Harry]
Harry Potter: What was that for?
Ron Weasley: It's no joke! I'm in love with her!
Harry Potter: Alright, fine, you're in love with her! Have you ever actually met her?
Ron Weasley: No... Can you introduce me?

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My favourite scene from Harry Potter's latest movie. HAHAHA.

Not blogging anymore, byebye :)

BOREDOM

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APPEARANCE
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

FAMILY
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

EMBARRASSMENT
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my trousers rip in public.

(Omg I'm like a walking, live tragedy.)

HEALTH
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment
[x] I've had stitches
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed
[x] I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed
[x] I had a serious surgery
[ ] I've had chicken pox

EXPERIENCES
[x] I've been lost in my city
[x] I've seen a shooting star
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I've been to a casino
[ ] I've been skydiving
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping
[x] I've played spin the bottle
[ ] I've crashed a car
[ ] I've been skiing
[x] I've been in a play
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night
[ ] I've played chicken
[x] I've played a prank on someone
[x] I've ridden in a taxi
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[x] I've eaten sushi
[ ] I've been snowboarding

RELATIONSHIPS
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

SEXUALITY
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

HONESTY
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.

BAD TIMES
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm upset.
[x] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.

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British
[x] You drink a lot of tea.
[x] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell."
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[x] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[x] Its football... not soccer.
Total: 6

Australian
[x] You wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops thongs not flip flops.
[ ] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[x] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[ ] You have an Australian something.
Total: 5

Italian
[x] The Sopranos is a great show.
[x] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[x] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[x] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[x] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''
[ ] You know what an Italian horn is.
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!
[x] You talk with your hands.
Total: 9

Spanish
[ ] You say member instead of Remember.
[ ] You speak Spanish or some.
[x] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[ ] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total: 3

Russian
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered.
[x] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[x] You get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[ ] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total: 4

Irish
[ ] You think beer is the best.
[x] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[ ] You have been to a St. Pattys day party.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[ ] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 2

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[ ] You know how to shoot a gun.
[x] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[x] You like chicken.
[ ] You like watermelon.
[ ] You can dance.
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 2

Asian
[x] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[x] You have played the piano.
[x] You have family from Asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[x] Most people think you're Chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 6

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good.
[ ] You speak some German.
[ ] You know what Schnitzel is.
[ ] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x] You went to pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2
Total: 4

Canadian
[x] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer.
[x] You say eh.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[ ] You speak some french.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched Degrassi.
Total: 2

American
[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non-Christians.
[x] You're lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[x] You hate abortion.
[x] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[x] You shop at Wal-mart.
[x] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 5

I am an Italian? No way.

HEALTH QUESTION & ANSWER SESSION

Q: I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life; is this true?
A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, and that's it... don't waste them on exercise. Everything wears out eventually. Speeding up your heart will not make you live longer; that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it faster. Want to live longer? Take a nap.

Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?
A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables. So a steak is nothing more than an efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken. Beef is also a good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable). And a pork chop can give you 100% of your recommended daily allowance of vegetable products.

Q: Should I reduce my alcohol intake?
A: No, not at all. Wine is made from fruit. Brandy is distilled wine, that means they take the water out of the fruity bit so you get even more of the goodness that way. Beer is also made out of grain. Bottoms up!

Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?
A: Well, if you have a body and you have fat, your ratio is one to one. If you have two bodies, your ratio is two to one, etc.

Q: What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise program?
A: Can't think of a single one, sorry. My philosophy is: No Pain... Good!

Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?
A: YOU'RE NOT LISTENING!!! Foods are fried these days in vegetable oil. In fact, they're permeated in it. How could getting more vegetables be bad for you?

Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft around the middle?
A: Definitely not! When you exercise a muscle, it gets bigger. You should only be doing sit-ups if you want a bigger stomach.

Q: Is chocolate bad for me?
A: Are you crazy? HELLO. Cocoa beans! Another vegetable!!! It's the best feel-good food around!

Q: Is swimming good for your figure?
A: If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.

Q: Is getting in-shape important for my lifestyle?
A: Hey! 'Round' is a shape!

Well, I hope this has cleared up any misconceptions you may have had about food and diets. And remember: Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways - Chardonnay in one hand - chocolate in the other - body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming, "Whoo what a ride!"

Fucking tired

Gave school a miss today. I don't know why but I feel so goddamn exhausted lately, as if all the energy has been sapped out of me. My whole body aches, my head throbs and my left eye is swollen. And did I mention that I had totally no energy at all? Fucking exhausted. Not hungry anymore, everything tastes so fucking repulsive, even peach tea. I sleep late at night and wake up at early afternoon.

Ok enough of ranting. I am going to wallow in my self-pity and grief, and try to not kill myself.

Speaking of which, I am craving for pizza (yes I realize how oxymoron that statement is).