It'll consume you

See how big my brother's shirt is on me, awwww.
I know I look fat in it, what to do, so baggy, LOL. But I like it, its very comfortable :D
My new sleepwear: BAGGY & LOOSE CLOTHES.

Ok bye, this update is totally random.
Bitching about this totally retarded girl with Maggie besterest bestie now, HAHA.

Together we cry

I am editing photos right now but I just have to type this down before I forget!!

Ok Jennifer just called me, and she was like, "EH HI TODAY IS YOUR ANNIVERSARY RIGHT?"
And I was like "Yeah. Getting me a present? :D"
And she said "OK YEA MAYBE I SHOULD!"

Guess what she bought (yes she told me -.-)

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TWO TIARAS.

"Eh you better squeeze one on Albert's head and take a photo hor I tell you"
- Jennifer Foo(L)

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I love art! I love drawing.
I just hate that we have to rush so much, and we're given so little time to complete assignments!

Anyway we were given a task to do research on pointillism. :(

Oh yes btw yesterday night, I was sleeping when my phone beeped at 12am. I was like super angry, like "Who the * would call at this hour" and then I realized how stupid I am by setting an alarm to remind me of 8th months anniversary. Super stupid right! I know.




My arms ache so much now, stupid Albert made me drag his Macbook all the way to my house. I hatehatehateHATE carrying heavy stuffs. I got off at the library since I wanted to buy my ice honeydew sago, then when I was walking, I was struggling with the Macbook & my artpiece so I DROPPED THE DRINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

So embarrassing, AND I WAS OBVIOUSLY STRUGGLING BUT NO ONE BOTHERED TO HELP WHEN THEY SAW THAT THE DRINK HAD SLIPPED FROM MY HANDS AND I WAS TRYING TO PICK IT UP TO THROW IT AWAY WHILE CARRYING A 2KG MACBOOK WITH THE CHARGER (OR WHATEVER ITS CALLED)!!!!

Angry angry. I fumed all the way back home (IT WAS SO HOT, I ALMOST DIED) and once I reached home, I couldn't cope with the anger anymore so I cried. Out of anger. -.-

I cannot stand menses!! Made me so emotional. Sheesh.
I was even shouting in my house and throwing things around :x

Long day tomorrow, sigh. :(

Retards

Some people are just really very ridiculous. :)
Please, if your english is not good at all, don't act like it is and start using bombastic words, because you just end up using it wrongly and making a big fool out of yourself.

You can't even punctuate properly, your spelling is atrocious, your way of phrasing sentences are hilarious (in a bad way) and whatever you type just makes NO sense at all.

Worse, are the people that comment that your english is good, that you have a strong foundation in english. HAH?! Stop being so deluded. :D

Daydreamer,

HELLO HI :D
I think sexuality education talks are a big waste of time, and so are career talks, so I'm planning to skip them all!! :B Eh what, its true okay.
Speaking of which, I remembered I skipped the Red Dot museum trip (for D&T) and Mr Wong said he wanted to give 6 hours detention to those who skipped, but I think he forgotten about it since he has not asked me to stay back!! :D

Oh yes, yesterday while my father was fixing my computer (it kept disconnecting), I was bored so I talked about my childhood! :D

I remembered what I was six, I had an accident and my tongue was cut nearly into half (like 3/4 of it, long story) and I was bleeding so much from the mouth! I don't remember crying, but I remember my mom stuffing a towel into my mouth to absorb the blood and a kind, angmoh lady buying ice cubes for me so I could pop it into my mouth and numb the pain.

Then my mom called my [biological] dad, asking if he could pick me up and send me to the hospital since he has a car. In the end, he didn't come so my mom had to carry me to the hospital. At the hospital, I was placed next to a baby that cried a lot. I was changed into hospital garb in front of everyone (-___-), and I remembered my mom bringing in a foldable bed and sleeping next to me almost everyday until I was released.

I don't remember the operation to stitch back my tongue but my mom told me I was sedated but I woke up in the middle of the operation when they were still stitching back my tongue and they froze because they thought I was going to start crying because ITS PAINFUL (like duh) but I just stared blankly so they continued sewing my tongue back, while I was completely awake!

Hee. I even have a certificate of bravery presented to me. Shall upload the picture of it someday. :D

Oh yes, and I remembered I had my childhood bestfriend! Myra Tan. :) I would always go to her house (she just lived one floor below me) and we would either study together or play detectives!

I still remembered the names we gave ourselves, I was Detective Mandy and she was Detective Jessica. LOL. YOU MIGHT BE LAUGHING AT THIS BUT REMEMBER WE WERE ONLY LIKE 4 TO 7 YEARS OLD!!! :B

I still remember my favourite teacher, Mr Chan. He was very nice, he was about 60+ I think? He told me he treated me like his very own granddaughter. I wonder how he is now, I miss him :/ He was not like a typical teacher, he would tell us stories, jokes, riddles, etc. :'( I really miss him!!! He called me 'Lingling'.

And when I was young, I got sick very often. I vomited like almost everyday, and I always vomit out my food. I had a lot of medicine to eat, and its so difficult to swallow them down as I always vomit them back out. I think that was why I was so skinny when I was small! :B Even when I was P6, I was like 28kg? But now I'm 40+ kg so yeah at least my health has improved leaps & bounds :)

And also, I remember the name of my very first crush! Daniel. He was a Malay, and he sat next to me. Hee. :x He was very handsome. HAHAHAHA! I was P1. And my second crush was Kenrich! Yea, thats his name, no kidding. I called him 'Cabbage'. :x And we used to play catching with each another! And my third crush was Lucas. Then I forgot all the order already, but I still remember their names! Jun Hao, Isaac, Ignatius, Cheng Kai, Sean, Marvin.

Ahem! It might seem like I have a lot of crushes, but it's normal!! :s
Still have more, but secondary school one leh! Better keep their names to myself, LOL.

Omg, I babbled so much about my childhood -.-

Moving on to school :D




Immature Najeera playing bounce on my old-school phone :D
I let in to you a cheat code - if you have this game, and you love playing it, but you hate dying, type in 787898. You'll never die after that! Mwahaha.

THIS GIRL CAN NEVER STOP LAUGHING!

But I guess thats a good thing because then I will also never stop laughing :D
Her laughter is so retarded, it'll make you laugh too :x

Anyway, I told my father I wanted to put braces because I have buck teeth and it is not nice. He told me nothing is wrong with my teeth and told me that my only problem is that MY TEETH ARE VERY BIG!!!

Really meh?!?! I've always thought that they are normal-sized!!

Oh yeah, History presentation was today! Mdm Nisha said our group slides are very nicely done and they were done by me. HEEEEEEEEEE. :D See, I'm a genius :)

By the way, today, during recess, Jennifer Carolyn Najeera Nora and I usually sit together but Juexin Jasnyn Jingting Jolene joined us and so it got really packed and they decided to play 'Heart Attack' but they changed the name to 'Breast Cancer'.

IT WAS SUPER HILARIOUS WHEN THEY SHOUTED "BREAST CANCER" LA! Carolyn is super enthu!!! She literally SHOUTED!!!!! The loudest of all. :x She used to be so quiet!!! Must be because of Jennifer!

I don't know why but I'm super happy nowadays. Too bad I'm having menses, makes me feel so exhausted + body aches all over, so it dampens my mood a bit.

I try not to let things get to me too much nowadays :D You'll be much happier that way, not letting words get to you, not letting whatever get to you. :)

It's difficult to hold things in, but for me, it's even more difficult to let things out. I'll feel like such a burden, unloading my problems on someone who probably has even more problems than me. I only talk about my relationship problems with my friends, thats really all. Other than that, I try to pretend that everything is alright, because when everybody thinks you're alright, you forget for a while that you're not.

What I really cannot stand, is when my friends unleash their anger on me. Sometimes I would just say, "Its okay, you can vent on me." But how can you just suddenly talk to me, and start typing in caps and start raving like a stark lunatic about how wrong your life is and how bad things are? You're not the only one that has problems.

Oh, YOU KNOW WHAT IS THE BEST OF ALL? I once had this friend, she was having a fight with one of my another friend. I don't take sides at all, because I find it immature to do so [nobody is ever fully right] so this friend got very pissed off me and start SCOLDING ME FOR BEING A BAD FRIEND! Obviously I was very upset and I cried. But I realized that friends like that, they're not worth crying over.

See, I don't really bother to cry over unimportant things. Friends are important, but if they don't bother to understand you and just get angry at you for no reason at all, WHY EVEN WASTE TEARS ON THEM?! In your life, people are going to hurt you, but it's up to you to decide who's really worth the pain.

Also, I really hate it when people tell me that love hurts!! LOVE NEVER HURTS! You want to know what love is? Love is living your own life, but SHARING it. Love is forgiveness. Love is making a hundred of thousands of mistakes and being able to forgive and turn these mistakes into learning experiences. Love is patient. Love is optimism. Love is accepting someone for who they are, flaws and all. Love is looking past their mistakes. Love is healing. Love is honesty. Love is loyalty. Love is faithful.

Love does not HURT. Losing love HURTS. Being lied to HURTS. Being betrayed/cheated HURTS. Being forgotten HURTS. Being misunderstood HURTS. But love, LOVE WILL NEVER HURT YOU. Love will never walk away too, only people do.

I'm tired of being the ugly friend

I guess that as you grow up, you trust less and you expect less out of people.
Promises are empty, love is difficult.
Nothing lasts, forever is just a beautiful lie.

Look, we've lived for less than 20 years, and yet how much have we been exposed to? We've learn that mankind is evil, for its the only species in the world that kills each another. Lions don't kill lions, snakes don't kill snakes, spiders don't kill spiders. The most poisonous and venomous and dangerous of animals, they don't kill each another. Only humans, for we kill each another in all sort of heartless methods - either we shoot with a gun, we stab with a knife, we bomb with a grenade/bomb, we rape and then kill, we kidnap and then kill, and there are even humans that eat other humans. Some even use love to kill.

We also learn that setbacks are often, that happiness is short-lived, that innocence and kindness are often a pretense to lure you into a trap, that human will stoop to all sorts of level to ruin you. With each passing day, as we learn more and more, grow more and more, we also hurt more and more, until every breath you draw in causes pain in your body, in your blood, in your bones. Your head will start to throb when you think, because you're in pain. Every day, you're in nothing but in the purest of pain. You'll be burning, hours later, you'll still be burning. And when someone touches you, she will burn along with you. Touch you, and she'll feel your pain.

"She had been so sure of her everyday life - you wake up, you make coffee, you send those you love off to school and to work, there is rain or it's sunny, you're late or you're on time, but no matter what, those who love you will love you forever, without questions or boundaries or the constraints of time. Daily life is real, unchanging as a well-built house. But houses burn; they catch fire in the middle of the night, like that house over on Sherwood Street where the son was smoking in bed and everything disappeared in an instant. No furniture, no family photos, only ashes. Well, it's ashes Jorie tastes now, ashes in her mouth, on her hands, beneath her feet. The fire had come and gone, and she hadn't even known it. She'd just stood there while it swept through the door."
- Alice Hoffman, Blue Diary

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I hate Mondays the most! It took me 45 minutes to finally get up today, and then I walked to school. D&T was okay, it passed quite quickly to me.
Maths .. -.- I don't understand anything! We're currently doing sets. Totally lost. :l

Ate at the hawker center opposite EV after school, and then Jennifer's mom drove me to the bank, and then I deposited money and went home. I'm having a terrible headache. Have to push it away, stop thinking about it, and maybe I'll forget that my head is even hurting.

Time to study Weiling, time to study.

(p/s: Forgot to add, while eating my noodles, Carolyn & I agreed that celebrating birthdays are a big waste of time (ok fine, to me it is, to Carolyn, she just can't be bothered to celebrate)! To me, its insignificant. Like, I don't care if its the day of your birth, whats so special about it when a million others are born on the same day as you?! I've never celebrated it with my friends before (only once, when I was P5, with Joanne & Sheena at Snow City :x Oh, and during kindergarten, its like a tradition to celebrate everyone's birthdays, so that one is bo bian one la!) and only with my family. :D I only want to celebrate my birthday when I turn 16, 18, 21, 50, 100. :B Other than that, I'll usually just sleep my birthday away! Or spend it doing unproductive things, hee :x)