Fuck illogical reasonings

I am seriously fucking PISSED.
Just because I have 5 previous relationships does not imply that I'm a desperate slut just looking for a fucking good time! What kind of shit reasoning is that? I'm just looking for love. I might be too young to start, or to even find a good man at all, but you know what? I just want to gain some experience along the way. I am willing to fully commit myself to a relationship, but if the guy falls out of love with me, what can I do? Make him fall back in love with me? Impossible. Love is love and forced love is not love.

Oh, and I like to hug people. Whats the big deal with hugging people? Or to be more specific, HUGGING GUYS? Does it means that I'm fucking them? Am I making out with them? NO. I'm just fucking HUGGING them. It doesn't mean a THING, it doesn't imply that I like them, it doesn't imply ANYTHING but the simple fact that I LIKE THEM AS A FRIEND, SO THAT IS MY WAY OF SHOWING MY LIKE FOR THEM. I am not going to use affection here, because I know people will misjudge my words and jump to fucking stupid conclusions again.

So what if it's not the norm for girls to hug guys (in Singapore, anyway)? It isn't a slutty act, it isn't a flirty act. I'm sorry that some girls are just that conservative and refuses to let a guy touch them. I'm sorry that I like giving out hugs, because I find it something that might cheer up a person's day. I'm sorry that I'm a huggy person. (Seriously wtf?)

And what the fuck is wrong with a girl going out with a guy alone? Does it mean that they're attached? I'm just comfortable with guys, and what's so wrong about that? I'm sorry that I was brought up differently from you guys, I'm fucking sorry that I am so comfortable around them that I can even joke about sex with them. Emphasis: JOKE. I'm not hinting them that I want to have sex with them, please. I'm not horny, neither am I desperate for a good time. I'm not interested in pre-marital sex too, or casual sex, whatever it is. I might be a little more knowledgeable in the sex department, but that is simply the consequences of living in a mainly-boys-environment.

Oh, before you guys say anymore SHIT, I am not self-praising myself here. It's just that there are too fucking many STUPID RUMOURS flying around that don't even have a single tinge of TRUTH. It's all people jumping to conclusions, self-assuming, self-judging, and self-concluding. WHY CAN'T I DEFEND MYSELF THEN?

And seriously, stop talking shit. I don't know how the fuck could I get 26 for my EL compo either. How the fuck could you, or ANYONE ELSE, blame me for being a teacher's pet? Jesus, I was (and still is) ALWAYS good at EL. I had NEVER failed a single compo. Or exam. Even so, I'm sure Ms Tan is not as bias as to give me a higher mark just because I'm the class chairman. Yes, she DID write 25 on my script initially. Then she wrote '6' over '5'. But even so, whats the difference? It's just one mark, and I would still be the highest in class and level anyway.

Yes I know a lot of people who had read my compo, half of them say the most I should get is probably 23-24, another half say I deserve my marks. But who am I to judge?

I'm sick of explaining myself over and over again, and stop with all your judgmental shit. You might know me in reality, but you don't know everything about me; you don't know ANYTHING at all. So shut your gab and leave my life alone. Am I really THAT interesting? Pffft.