So stand in the rain, stand your ground

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To be fatally honest and straightforward with you [you know who you are], I don't know what I want from you and I don't know what you want from me. What could I want with you, the boy that everybody knows is no prize, but somehow I feel convinced that there's something lurking there behind your childish smile and simple-minded comments. Because you turned to me and told me, "I think I'm in love with you." Does that rationalize everything that's happened so far? In my heart, in my life?

I don't know what it is, I just cry sometimes. Maybe I'm just so oblivious to the things going around me, that I don't realize that I'm hurting as much as I am, so when the tears stream down my face and I don't have anything to say, don't ask me why I'm crying, because I simply don't know. Just hold me, I just want to be held (not applicable to everyone).

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Gee... my blog is seriously suffering from a severe deprivation of pictures, but I can't be bothered anymore. I officially have no life. Everyday = study, study, study. No time for play... besides coming online and taking a break from studying.

Proof: After returning from Australia and unpacking my luggage, I left my slippers in my room, telling myself to bring them down whenever I go out. So far, it has been 2 weeks since I've returned and till now, my slippers are still rotting in my room = I've not stepped out of the house once I've come back home from school. Not even during the weekends.

See? Told you. No life. I lack social interaction. I am turning into a social pariah. I am isolated and secluded and outcast from the outside world. HAHAHA.

Anyway, I have an important issue to address today (act professional only -_-).

Which is, the obscene number of confessions made to me ever since my break up. -_- Okay, for the sake of my sanity, I shall list out the reasons why you should not have me as a girlfriend:

1) I am very demanding.
- Seriously. I like my boyfriend to serve me... literally. SO, unless you want to turn into a slave... :)

2) I am very pragmatic.
- Thus, talking to me would often make you end up super frustrated.

3) I am very whiny.
- I whine. A lot. On a daily basis. Your ears will die.

4) I am awfully straightforward.
- Which means I can be quite tactless sometimes and hurt your feelings. In my dictionary, sometimes = often.

5) I am a very [physically] sick person.
- I get sick very often and I'll pass my sickness to you. This is bad.

6) I am more emotional than you.
- I cry easily at the slightest remarks.

7) I am very boisterous.
- I'll irritate you to no end with my endless laughter and [lame] jokes.

8) I am a huggy person.
- So I'll hug other guys even if I'm attached to you. Because hugs are not an intimate physical contact, but apparently, to everyone, it is a sin to hug someone, especially someone of the opposite sex, when you are attached. So if you get jealous easily, don't.like.me.

Aiyah I can't think of more. You can ask all my previous boyfriends about what a disaster girlfriend I was.

And no I am not boasting. :)

I mean, I also do not get it why I am asked out :/ I'm not pretty, I'm not smart, I'm not attractive and yes I know maybe they are not superficial and go for personality instead, but most of them are just people I knew recently, so how would they know how I really am?

Aiyah, don't want to elaborate so much on it. Anyway, that is why you guys shouldn't persist on asking me out anymore, because you'll drown in regret later. Like how my previous boyfriends did. :D

Oh and I am very irritated with a bunch of random people telling me that I look "skinnier". Even my teachers. Ms Nah was like, "Have you lost weight?" And I'm like.... gee, why is everyone saying that? Well, not literally everyone but you get what I mean!

Kk bye. I am going to study now (see, no life).