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Proof that I still studied even when I was in Australia. That's my Literature novel; To Kill a Mockingbird. It's currently swamped with a pile of stick-on notes because I'm studious like that. Did I mention that whilst it was summer in Australia, it was winter in my aunt's house? Freezing cold.
My mama and I. My hugs are priceless. Incomparable. :P Well, yes, I've noticed that I am rather self-loving. However, I hope that you guys have noticed that it was all in jest.
Awwwwwwww. :D
So I looked back on us today. I don't know why I missed you and why I wanted you back, because from where I stand, no one was having fun. Sure, at the beginning, we were kids rushing into things we had no idea it was about, but slowly, instead of trusting you more, I trusted you less. I spent hours, days, even months of our relationship worrying about who you might leave me for because there was always someone better than me. I spent a year trying to be the perfect girlfriend until I couldn't anymore. My body tried to tell me it had to stop - our relationship was literally making me sick. And now it's over. I'm sorry, I did love you, but I had to get out. It was like poison slowly seeping through my body, infecting every possible organ, finally getting to my brain, telling me that this was it. This was the end. We weren't having fun anymore. And this is what you've wanted all along, is it not? I guess I kind of knew in my heart that it was over before you even said it. Initially, I thought that you've just broke my heart but you've made it stronger, made it resilient. And yeah, it'll be a while before I'm completely over you, but when the day comes that you don't cross my mind and I finally do forget you for good... please, don't remember me.
Thank you for being such a fabulous waste of time.
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