Rain on me

I am very tired, just came back from Guides.
Had to carry a big box of 6 tins of cookies back home by myself :/

just how much do you people want to torment me?
everytime, you get into trouble, you expect me to bail you out.
no more of this, this will be the very last time you're going to expect me to bail you out.
and .. just how much do i have to continue giving?
i am so tired of giving and giving and giving, and people complaining that ITS NOT ENOUGH.
i've always consoled people when they need me, no matter how much i despise them.
i've always helped people when they ask me to, no matter how exhausted i am.
i've always tried my best to help, and people are telling me that ITS JUST NOT ENOUGH.
why, why is NO ONE capable of ever being nice to me, and telling me that they APPRECIATE what i've done for them?!
instead of telling me bullshit like, "oh my friends are nicer" or "you very good meh -.-" or stuffs like that.
well, yea i know, sometimes people are just teasing me and fooling around, but seriously, every single goddamn day? stop this, stop telling me that i'm not good, or that i'm not a good friend/person whatever 24/7. YOU'RE NOT VERY PERFECT YOURSELF!
see, nobody understand this simple logic which is nobody is perfect. even if they use the phrase before, they don't seem to apply it. look, i'm not perfect either ok? yea, sure, go on, say things like 'he/she is nicer, he/she is friendlier, he/she is kinder, he/she is sweeter". YEA SURE, JUST GO ON BECAUSE I HAVE NO FUCKING FEELINGS AT ALL, RIGHT?!
i mean, who cares if i cry every night knowing that NO ONE APPRECIATES WHAT I'M DOING FOR THEM? who cares if i cry every night knowing that I'LL NEVER BE SHOWN APPRECIATION?
nobody really cares anymore.
all they care for is themselves.
i'm sick of sacrificing my time for other people.
if you people are just going to make use of me for your own advantage. then why should i bother anymore? why should i bother to download songs for you? why should i bother to design blogskins for you? why should i bother to create an avatar for you? why should i bother to create animations for you? why should i bother to ask my father to burn the photoshop cd for you so you can download photoshop to your computer? why should i bother to advise/console you? why should i bother to even help anyone at all, when its such a thankless job?
i'm not even expecting gifts or anything, all i want is just a simple "Thanks so much :D" or "I appreciate this a lot :)" and no, "thanks" is not counted. its so insincere.
then again ... apply the same logic to myself: nobody is perfect.
so yea, maybe i should just continue doing favours for other people, and i should continue expecting nothing back from them.
i have a give-and-take life. i give and people take.
they just keep on taking and taking and taking, as if i'm just born to help people and nothing more.