WeiLing has been caught for vandalizing my blog and thus, I shall heavily return the favour. =3

She wanted to blog about her wonderful boyfriend, and wants me to do it for her*Cross Fingers*.

I Love JunHao, the one and only guy that can captures my heart. He is lovable and caring. All hail JunHao~

Sorry

for the lack of updates. :B

Let's seeeeee, Saturday I went out with Jennifer and we had dinner at Nihon Mura and then we went to shop around and then I sent her off :D Sunday I went to the Tampines Sports Hall for a round of badminton with my family and was so exhausted, I stayed home the whole day after.

Then, today, I was molested by a female teacher (T___T) and there was a minor dispute which culminated into a huge dispute, resulting in policemen swooping in to salvage the situation :O Irfan has an amazing knack at dramatizing every single fight that he has. Like, srsly, have you guys noticed?

So anyway, to answer to all of you guys' queries, yes I have a boyfriend now. :) No, I didn't patch with Albert, and no, I'm not a slut who's desperate for a boyfriend. It just so happened that the guy that I liked also liked me back. Alright? :)

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You spend so much time wondering who you are, don't you think? You flounder about, searching for your identity, when most of the time it is as plain as the nose on your face. You struggle with questions of purpose and need, and forget that the answers are found mostly inside yourself.

Though I really don't see the point in pretending to be something, someone other than what you are, because if you do, at some point, you're going to have to reveal your true self, and your 'friends' are going to run off screaming.

Sigh. You put on a good show, but I bet you suffer more than you let anyone know.

I don’t even think it’s fathomable all the ways you manage to disappoint me

My brother is so handsome, hehe :x

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A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. If he’s not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should be only because he’s showing up at your new residence to do it in person. If he’s not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately, he’s just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it’s like to live without you.
- Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo, He’s Just Not That Into You

That unqualified truth is that, when I loved her with the love of a man, I loved her simply because I found her irresistible. Once and for all; I knew to my sorrow, often and often, if not always that I loved her against reason, against promise, against peace, against hope, against happiness, against all discouragement that could be. Once and for all; I loved her because I knew it, and it had no more influence in restraining me than if I had devoutly believed her to be human perfection.
- Charles Dickens, Great Expectations

Please allow me to wipe the slate clean. Age has no reality except in the physical world. The essence of a human being is resistant to the passage of time. Our inner lives are eternal, which is to say that our spirits remain was youthful and vigorous as when we were in full bloom. Think of love as a state of grace, not the means to anything, but the alpha and omega. An end in itself.
- Love In The Time Of Cholera

I just believe in things that were done. And there were so many things done here. Streets and houses and books and big canals and clocks and places with names – things that were used and touched for centuries. And I don’t see how we could ever use them without feeling uncomfortable. Oh, we could change the names, but the old names will still be there. So no matter how we touch Mars, we won’t be able to really touch it. See, that’ll make us angry. We’ll get mad at that and just rip it up. We’ll change it to suit ourselves. And ruin it. Just like how we’ve ruined Earth.
- The Martian Chronicles

I’m afraid of not having enough time. Not enough time to understand people, how they really are, or to be understood myself. I’m afraid of quick judgments and mistakes that everybody makes. You can’t fix them without time. I’m afraid of seeing snapshots instead of movies.
- The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants

Have been reading books like crazy, as you can tell.

Oddly liberating

NAMIRAH TAK GLAM (kk you very cute) HAHAHAHA :x

Something really awesome happened to me today and I'm ~~falala~~ happy HAHAHAHA ("It is quite funny how childish you get when you're happy," said my mom).

It was the best thing anyone had ever said to me in ages, and it was the best for one reason: I felt the same way. :D It feels like an absolute miracle. It is an absolute miracle. :)

Went to Burger King with Jennifer and Carolyn after enrichment (haha enrichment was so fun, I have an extremely crappy seat partner mah :P But thanks for the M&Ms :D) and laughed till my stomach hurt. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

As you can tell, I'm really happy. :D:D

I LOVE EVERYONE IN THIS SWEET GODFORSAKEN WORLD~~~

Titles are so redundant

To sum1uneedntaskforname:

I appreciate you coming to my blog, but please do remember, if you want to criticize, please criticize me instead of my friend. After all, this is my blog, so who you should be criticizing is me, not Jennifer. Besides, I'm very sure she did nothing to offend you, so just shut up and stop trying so hard for attention. :)

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My.back.freaking.HURTS. I woke up with a really aching back and shoulders and everything, my arms were sore as hell and then I had to carry my schoolbag which is falling apart because I don't know how to take care of things (ha) so I have to go purchase a new one. Anyway, I was aching all over today and now I am still aching and I feel like crying because it hurts so much :(

I don't like Aaron [not EV], he kept on going, "Hehe you weak like pussy. :D" Hng! At least I wasn't the one that was clinging on to people when we went to OCH :P

Watched Saw 2 and I like this quote:

"Can you imagine what it feels like to have someone sit you down and tell you that you’re dying? The gravity of that, hm? Then the clock’s ticking for you. In a split second your awe is cracked open. You look at things differently – smell things differently. You savor everything, be it a glass of water or a walk in the park. But most people have the luxury of not knowing when that clock’s going to go off. And the irony of it is that that keeps them from really living their life. It keeps them drinking that glass of water but never really tasting it."

I........... I remember every word you said, okay? I'm not that naive, and I'm not that stupid. I've been broken before, I can deal. I'm not scared of moving on with my life. What I'm scared of is that I'll realize somewhere along the road, that you were my life.

Tainted

Okay so it was the first day of school day and it started off with a spot check that had me laughing uncontrollably because Ms Tan said, in her exact words, "Your earrings are not accurate." Hahaha, so hilarious (well it is to me) :B

And now I'm so tired because lessons ended at 3pm and I slept late ystd because I was rushing all my holiday assignments... slept late and thus, overslept -___- Tsk had to rush again and I am so tired of rushing I am so tired of the hectic pace of life and I seriously wish everything would just slow down and things go smoothly for me for once.

It's like, everyday, life throws more and more burdens at me and it accumulates to one massive burden that I have to trudge to and fro daily... it gets sickening and on some days, you just want to give up and just rid yourself of all these... baggage? Idk how to describe it but yeah hopefully you guys will catch the gist of it.

Judge me if you want, but keep the verdict to yourself. I don't want to know, because you're a stranger to my life, you don't know anything, and we all know that first impressions are important but not necessarily true. You really don't know anything, so just shut up till you know me better... then you'll have the right to judge me and the right to criticize me. But for now, stop looking at me with those beady eyes of yours.

Ah I'm tired of feeling sad, of feeling bad, of feeling judged, of feeling misjudged, of feeling lied to, of feeling lost, of feeling disappointment, of feeling everything. Right now, I rather just feel nothing at all. It's better, it's easier.

What a feeling

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Currently rushing all my holiday assignments and dying. I have bushy hair. :)
Urgh am drowning, seriously, I should STOP doing my homework at the very last minute... very bad habit that I have. Oh well.

Shall wake up at 5am tomorrow and complete the rest of the homework. Sigh my life is so glamorous.

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I'm off to do my holiday assignments in a bit. :/ Ah it's already March 22, it's going to be April soon. I can't get over how fast time seems to pass by, it's like... wow. I am quite overwhelmed by it all. Has it ever occurred to you that the older you get, the faster time seem to pass? :/ Cus it seems to be the case for me and it is scary cus I don't want to.... how do I describe it? I don't want to experience more hurt and pain, I don't want to meet new people and I don't want to graduate and adapt to a new school environment and find a group of friends cus I suck at socializing... sigh :(

Today I was reading the newspaper and then I saw the obituary... somehow, at that moment of time, I desperately wanted to die. It's just scary.... you never know if the next second you'll just collapse and die. Ok I don't know why I'm feeling so paranoid now ha ha ha.

I've been watching your world from afar, I've been trying to be where you are, and I've been secretly falling apart, unseen... to me, you're strange and you're beautiful, you'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see, you turn every head.... but you don't see me.

Yaswin Mama's bday

Celebrated Yaswin Mama's 42 bday ystd... and let me clarify, he's not my mama, HAHA. Mama means uncle in Nepal (I think so HAHA) so yeah :) My dad is a Nepalese, yeah. (Omg you know what? I should just do a post about my family and why I'm a pure Chinese yet a Hindu -_-)







I have the cutest cousins ever :D Jealous? HAHAHA. And my bandage skirt just came in the mail, but it's too short... so I'm selling it off! $10 only :)



Okay I shouldn't be lazy and go create a blogshop later. :D

Going now for my badminton match! BYEEEEEEEEEE :D

Brighter than sunshine

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine

I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling

I didn't have the strength to fight
Suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

Happy belated birthday Liying

Taken yesterday when I went with them (Junhao, Nich, JJ, Zhenghou, Guowang, Xiaopang) to Changi Beach and then OCH (Old Changi Hosp, for those suaku people). I went there 3 times, and yesterday was the first time I felt so paralyzed. -_- Shan't elaborate on it! Went home around 11pm, thanks Junhao for walking me to the bus stop :D



I like my tee on that day too hehe.
And todayyyy ~!



Celebrated Liying's birthday today, albeit belated! :) It was on the 16th of March, haha. So we celebrated it; Liying, Huishan, Joanne and mememememe. :D

Met Joanne at Huishan's house first, we baked a cake (ok, it's actually a brownie, a huge one) and some random food stuffs, then we met Liying and we had our rooftop picnic at the top level of the carpark HAHAHAHAHA. We took a lot of pictures (300+ LOL) and that is the consequence of putting 4 girls together :D

So, here are some pictures before we met Liying:



Bunch of slackers. :P



Huishan's crown which we forced Liying to wear because she's the birthday girl... HAHA.



And that is why I don't let down my hair often. Because it makes me look even uglier haha.






When we went to buy ~PARTEH~ stuffs hahahahaa :x



How it [cake] initially looked like!







And after!



Extremely chocolate-y brownie (thanks to Joanne who couldn't help pouring in more chocolate chips :P) topped off with Nutella and M&Ms. I believe that this was the most chocolate-y thing I've ever baked. A bit too sweet, but that's because we poured all our love into it too :P (So cheesy hehe cannot stand it)




Biiiiiiiiiirthday girl :D
(whom we forced to wear a crown for the night)



She loves it, loves us, loves ME! :D



Lighting the candles was a tedious and lengthy process because... we are all noobs at lighting candles HAHAHAHA.



Uh yes we forced her to wear the crown HAHHAHA. :D












They started poledancing. :O



Hehehe lovelove ^^

A series of night group pictures (some are really stupid HAHA):





As you all can see, Joanne is the most enthusiastic one among us all... :D

Okay, these are the pictures I've received from Joanne! There are more, from Huishan, which I've not received, so I'll edit this post later with more pictures + more details. OKAY WATCH THIS SPACE xx