With one eye on the clock,

and one eye on my phone. It's 6:14pm and I'm feeling alone. And if I could talk to you, I'd want you to know that it'll be fine....

(Beau)tiful

It was never simple, never easy. I can't live without you, but I have to.

-

Was really difficult to wake up today... Maxy woke me up last night when he messaged me at like, 12.30am?! Srsly need to lower my message alert. So I only ended up sleeping around 2am, cus once I wake up, its hard for me to fall back to sleeeeep.

But in the end, I got up early for nothing cus Jenny overslept. -___- But her mom drove me to school too, anyway.



My skirt very short meh? (Tucked in on purpose to show the length - okay there's a story behind it but I'm lazy to repeat... stupid Jenny).

Went in to class and Ms Tan was so surprised to see me! HAHA. I am such an asset (not -_-).




Went to eat at Pizzahut with Kokky, Prissy, Jenny. Communication gap, HAHAHA. Jenny came to my house for a while after that.... BOOB. HAHAHA! Okay, inside joke. :P It started when Jenny started asking whats the chinese name for breasts and I asked Albert and then he said "xiong bu". Then we were like.... HAHAHAHA. ALRIGHT. SHALL SHUT UP. :D



CHIONESS! ~ v^^v ~

When the moon fell in love with the sun

Okay fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK.

The doctor said I'm showing symptoms of anorexia again. WTF. I just got over it a few years ago and now I'm showing signs of it. Probably because my weight suddenly dropped to 38.7kg (I have no idea why?!) and I've not been eating. I seriously have no appetite!

SO HOW TO EAT?!

So now, my doctor said he's giving me 2 weeks to pile on back the weight to my usual weight, 42kg. If not, I'll have to go for therapy again. WHAT!!!!!! I hate therapy! I HATEEEEE IT TO THE MAX. :(

Oh, btw, I am very happy today! Before I went to the doc, of course. :D First, during F&N, we have our very own notebooks (aka laptops) assigned to us! ^^ Second, I got the highest in class for EL compo (with Lynny)! Third, OKAY THIS IS REALLY PERSONAL, ONLY JENNY AND LYNNY AND NAJ AND SEVERAL OTHER PEOPLE KNOWS ABOUT THIS.

I'm like, seriously really happy today! :D

Tomorrow meeting Jenny in the early morning to eat breakfast at Macs together and then go to school to do class noticeboard while she has her maths remedial and then Kokky said he'll treat me to Pizzahut for lunch and then I'll have to rush home for maths tuition, and then some of my mother's friends will be coming over to celebrate CNY, so MORE ANGBAOS FOR ME! :D Sunday might be going out with Max? Not sure ay.

Then I'll be leaving for Australia, Perth next Saturday! :D

Though I have quite a lot of tests coming up next week. Maths, SS, Lit, CL. SUCK ASS MAN. So many subjects to study! :(

But I can't wait!!! To be away from school for 1 whole week will be awesome, though I'll miss my friends. :B Oh yeah, and today, someone ____ me, IT WAS SO SUDDEN... HAHA.

Nights y'all! <3

Musings

Appalled at people's lack of tact.

It is fine if you have constructive criticism about me - that, I don't mind. Like, me being unreasonable with a reasonable reason (just realized how oxymoron this sounded like), etc. Calling me names like slut, desperate, noob, bitch without any reasons = really unreasonable.

Just because I was more often the dumpee (hope you guys know what this mean) instead of the dumper does not mean that I am undesirable and that I was the dumpee because I had lots of attitude problems and that I am so ugly that I must have turned them off.

So please, instead of accusing me and pinpointing me as the horrible one, PLEASE THINK AGAIN AND LOOK AT YOURSELF, LOOK AT WHO'S TALKING.

And just because I say to stop insulting me does not imply that I am "hum" (aka coward).

:(

Nice sun.

Some pictures from a nooooooooong time ago - I finally could be arsed to transfer the pictures from my hammy to my commy (handphone and computer respectively; what, the nicknames are cute okay).



This is during camp. The person in blue shall thus be named Lynny from now on. HAHAHA.



This is like, during the first few weeks of school. Jingting and Jennifer, OH YEAH SEE WHAT I'M CARRYING? BIG PILE OF BOOKS. ALMOST BROKE MY ARMS. Now it's all lying safely in 306. :D



Stars.



CAUGHT LYNNY DIGGING HER NOSE!



Jennifer looks so much better with her hair tied up.




RIGHT?!?!?!! SO MUCH BETTER.

Oh yeah after she came back from Jakarta/Bali, I was so surprised to see that her hair has grown so much till it's even longer than MINE. >:( What fiiiiish.



I have noooo idea who took this pictures. I just found it in my hammy. I was talking to my ahma. This is at my eldest uncle's house during CNY.



Mummy and Sebby.

Alrighty, AM DONE.

Today: I woke up at 7.15am and reached school at 7.55am. Now tell me, am I awesome or what? Mr Yeong just had to nag at me for having inapproriate attire though. Meh.

Urgh I'm so depressed, so much so that it makes me want to revert to my old ways (something to do with wax and skin).... alright, screw this self-pity shit. I'm going to be happy.

Oh yeah I've seek solace from so many people, in the end I made them promise me a treat to Pizza Hut cus in Pizza Hut lies my deepest love: pizzas. HAHAHAHAHA. -____-

I was so, drowsy then. says (4:41 PM):
Oh oh oh and weiling
Weiling says (4:41 PM):
?
I was so, drowsy then. says (4:41 PM):
I love you <3 style="font-weight: bold;">I was so, drowsy then. says (4:41 PM):
cue the "awwwwwwww"
I was so, drowsy then. says (4:41 PM):
AWW!
Weiling says (4:41 PM):
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

I am loved! Oh yeah thanks to all the people that've comforted me, love you all very much too! :D I hear random cries of "Weilingggg, wo ai ni!" everyday, HAHA. Though I find it weird that right after the news came out, someone ____ with his ____.




Teehee.

Hey moon, don't you fall now

Contracted leg cramps after running during PE today. Had like, what, 4 people massaging my legs? c:

Played Truth and Dare today with Jennifer and Carolyn... okay, all we did is truth because we were in Burger King and we're not brave enough to make a public disgrace of ourselves. So, yup. Ridiculous questions like, "What's your weirdest wet dream?" and "Describe in vivid details, how you and ______" and things like that. :D

It's funny how the less we talk, the more I begin to realize it wasn't meant to be. It's funny how slow it began and how fast it ended. It's funny how in the beginning he liked me but at the end he liked someone else. It's funny. You've always loved her. And now I can see that the one in your heart was never me. All of those times you held me close - it was her that you needed and loved the most. It's hard for me to swallow my pride knowing that my love was the love you denied.

Edit:

Alright, did some changes. HOW DO CHU GUYS LIKE ME NEW BLOG BANNER HUH HUH HUH?

Anywaaaaaaaays.

I really hate it when my elders complain about how bad and unruly our generation is becoming... well, all I have to say is: those who criticize our generation forget who was the one that raised it. ;)

Sing me to sleep tonight

Hey everyone, so how's your new year? Mine has been pretty exciting, what with Albert telling me, "Let's just be friends." So I guess I'm single, after 1 year and ... 3 days of being attached? I guess that kinds of explains the lyrical posts ay?

So.

I've been visiting my relative's houses, family's friends' houses, and collecting lots of $$$. I've collected about $4xx so far, cool right. I'm not going to spend it though, it's all going in the bank. I've decided to totally obliterate my practice of online shopping (woah so drama) and just save up for my future. :)






A lot of people say I look like Auntie JC (the one with the black floral shirt), and that she's my 'biological mother'. HAHAHA. Lookalike meh? You decide.



So glamorous. :D



Even more glamorous :D

Kk gtg naos. Actually I don't have to but I'm having a really bad headache, accompanied with flu, cough and a tad of sore throat. Just perfect.

Forgive, but don't forget

the kitchen is cold but the coffee is warm and the sun's coming up. the day has just begun and you're already bored. bored of cheering me up, bored of calming me down. bored of drying my eyes. but there once was a time when you were the one. you were once the blue of the sky. you came after the storm. you were the switch on the wall in the dark of the hall i'm still fumbling for.

You want to see how much I love you? Go outside when its raining and catch drops on your tongue.
The ones you catch are how much you love me; the ones you miss is how much I love you.

Well, I, just see the stars

Now, look yonder. Now, you see that girl? She's conjuring up her melancholy, and no that can't go on. "Certainly, our sadness was necessary." Oh, we've been so wrong. And all that distance that we dispatch won't ever help us, help her, feel less alone. She, with hair as black as night, with skin the perfect white - and the red on the bathroom wall. Can't you see, can't you tell; he've made her wait for too long.

Now, look yonder. Now, you see that boy? He's conjuring up his happiness, and no that can't go on. "Certainly, our happiness was necessary." Oh, we've been so wrong. And all that love that we dispatch won't ever help us, help him, feel less alone. He, with hair as black as night, with skin the perfect white - and the red on the bathroom wall. Can't you see, can't you tell; she've burdened him for too long.

His/her neck is shattered by the tides. The ocean prays for his/her demise, but I swear to you - I watched his/her heart pump blood into those veins, throwing punches at ocean waves.

Stop all that dark and senseless brooding; sing a different song. Don't get dramatic - this ain't the movies; turn the camera off. All that acting seemed fun at first, but we've been playing this role for too long.

-

You're the sunlight that never comes, you're the reason I don't believe. You're the reason I'm always on the run, away from everything and everyone. You're the reason I lie awake. A same recurring dream; a fever that wouldn't break.

"Life has to end.... love doesn't."

Hs is an idiot

Hi I am supposed to bring Huishan shopping today but she's a very slow shopper so.... eh no, she's also very fussy and picky :P So no choice must come to my house and sell her my clothes instead. I've made a profit of $25 WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! :D :D :D

Okay I'll blog later, a lot of eggtarded pictures. Give you one sneak preview!

KK GTG NAOS.



See Joanne we miss chu very much.



Slightly high...





Very high! Wearing my ahma's clothes btw, hahaha :x

AHMA'S CLOTHINGS ARE THE NEW VEST YO



BEYOND HIGHNESS



Haha can't believe I actually dared to put these pictures up -_-
Oh well.

(PS: Joanne and Huishan are SCANDALOUS PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!111!!!!)
(PSS: They had BOYFRIENDS BEHIND MY BACK OHMAISHIET)