Saturday, October 4, 2008

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I AM SO FUCKING PISSED OFF.

I have no connection now so I’m typing this in Microsoft Word.

ANYWAY, I’M LIKE, SO PISSED OFF NOW.

I was coaching Najeera History, when suddenly my fucking wonderful connection HAD to just go fucking HAYWIRE and so I disconnected.

So, I asked my brother who was playing some lame war craft game to help me reset the connection since I needed to help my friend. He refused, said he don’t know how, that I knew how, and that he wants to play his game.

What the fuck.

He resetted the connection for me before, I DO NOT FUCKING KNOW HOW, BECAUSE IF I FUCKING DO, WHY THE FUCK WOULD I FUCKING ASK HIM, and so a FUCKING COMPUTER GAME IS MORE FUCKING IMPORTANT THAN YOUR SISTER, YOUR BLOOD-RELATED SISTER?!

THIS IS WHAT I HATE SO MUCH ABOUT MEN – THEIR PRORITIES ARE SO FUCKING MESSED UP THAT IT’S SO FUCKING ANNOYING!!!!!!!

I mean, SERIOUSLY?! I know I know, I once said everyone is entitled to their own opinions or thoughts. But tell me – playing a game is more important than helping a family member.

How ridiculous is that?

Win liao lor, win liao lor.

What the fuck more can I fucking say. His life, so it’s his decisions right. Like that how, you tell me. -_________________-

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I’M FUCKING PISSED OFF STILL LA.

Why people have such nice siblings who dote on them so much …
While mine doesn’t even give a flying fuck about me?

Isn’t that so sad. Lol. Elder sibling supposed to look out for young sibling. Help them when they need it. Supposed to love them. Why do the men in my life always turn out abusing me. Why why why why why why.

FUCKING HELL LA FUCKING PISSED OFF.

Why the fuck should I even cry. Cry for some fucking idiot who doesn’t even give a fuck about me. WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I CARE FOR HIM TOO? It isn’t fair. NOTHING IS EVER FAIR. Why must I keep giving in. IS IT TOO MUCH TO JUST GIVE IN TO ME FOR ONCE?!

SELFISH, SELFISH, SELFISH.

Everyone is selfish. Nobody cares about you 100%. TOO BUSY CARING FOR THEMSELVES TO CARE FOR YOU. FOR ME. ME.

I DON’T WANT TO HELP ANYONE ANYMORE, THIS REALLY DISAPPOINTS ME, WHEN PEOPLE DO NOT HELP ME AT ALL BUT INSTEAD FUCKING LAUGH AT MY PROBLEM. WHEN I’VE BEEN HELPING THEM ALL ALONG.

It's at times like this, I really wish I would just die.

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