BUNS

Really excited about Saturday; my first official debate! :B :B :B Hehehe.
And as for the September holidays, I'll be utilizing the extra time to study. ^^ I'm so serious about my studies, heh. But what am I to do, Singapore is so academic-focused that if you fail one subject, it will affect your future drastically~ T.T

Or maybe it's just because the fact that my Os is just about a year away is very frightening.

Hmmmm, talked to Raina for a while today, she's very friendly, I like. ^^



On a random note, I really like how I am right now. :) I've become so much stronger; whenever I went through a heartbreak, I would lose grip of myself, I would become an emotional wreck. But now, I found I could survive. I was alert, I still felt the pain - the aching loss that radiated from my chest, sending wrecking waves of hurt through my limbs and head - but it was manageable. I could live through it. I didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time, but rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it.

I guess I've realize now that when your heart breaks, you’ve got to fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive. Because that pain you feel? That’s life. The confusion and fear; that’s there to remind you that somewhere out there, something is better. That something is worth fighting for. As we strain to grasp the things we desire, the things that we think will make our lives better, we ignore what truly matters – the simple things. Like family and friendship. Yes, losing your heart’s desire is tragic but gaining your heart’s desire is all you can hope for. This year I wished for love, to immerse myself in someone else and awake a heart long afraid to feel. My wish was granted, and if having that is tragic, then give me tragedy, because I wouldn’t give it back for the world. ;)

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I do not hate you, and have never hated you. I was angry at you and depressed by you and confused about you. But hate never came into it.