an overflow of words

Waiting for pictures to be uploaded.... so meanwhile I shall rant.

First of all, I was polite enough to say goodbye to you when you left the house, so don't tell me to "shut up" when I was singing The Beatles - I want to hold your hand and tell me that I am "very noisy" with such an angry face. It is a fucking birthday party; you expect me to shut up and keep to myself? A birthday party is supposed to be happy and fun and full of singing and laughing and jokes, not a morose event.

Actually, you do have the right to be pissed off because I admit that we were rather rude to you. However, I did not show you an attitude of any kind. Instead, I was welcoming and I made small talk with you. I admit that my singing sucks, but it's not like yours is fucking perfect. So please, don't be rude to me without reason.

Secondly, I am disappointed that I didn't maintain my standard and dropped from the first in class to the fourth in class. I jokingly said to the top 3 that I didn't like them. Of course I didn't mean it - I was smiling when saying it, how the fuck can it be serious? I'm not jealous, just very disappointed with myself. Anyway, congratulations to Zhigao for being first, Peirong for being second and Insyirah for being third. They worked hard and they are deserving of their positions.

Thirdly, I am a very opinionated person. I am not afraid to express my opinions and thoughts on/about things, and if I am not happy with you, I will voice it out. Is there something wrong with being fucking honest? You people claim that you hate liars, but when I speak the fucking truth, you guys hate me for it. What the fuck is wrong with you? Make up your fucking mind - do you want sweetened lies or the harsh truth?

(On a sidenote, I really like what Jennifer posted in her Tumblr.

"It’s really sad how people are forced to be silent because of fear. We fear the bullies, we fear the retorts, we fear the hatred, we fear everything but we don’t fear silence. Silence is much scarier than that.

Speak up. We have voices."

Exactly. I absolutely refuse to be silenced by fear.)

And lastly, I am a dramatic person and I tend to talk too loud and exaggerate too much. That's how I am, so please don't tell me to change. I keep quiet in class, but during recess, I'm with friends and I'll shout - I'm just having fun so can you just let me have my fun? What, you've never laughed out a little too loud when you're with your friends? If yes, then your life must be pretty sad.

Let me repeat once again:

I am a lovely person. I just choose not to share it with you. :)