Absolutely fucking marvelous

How am I going to spend my 15th birthday?

Why, watching Swan Lake alone, of course.
And I actually thought this year will be a happy one. Fuck hope. I always get fooled.
-_-

Now desperately trying to sell them off. Sigh hope someone will buy them quick. If not I just have to really go alone. I swear, whenever I have faith in something going right for the very first time in my life, something comes along to destroy it. I think that's Life's way of telling me I'll never be happy or something. Seriously, c'mon, here I was, buying tickets, smiling while walking to Sistic counter to collect my tickets, fucking smiling and walking with a spring in my legs while walking back home. And now Life gives me this fucking joke. It's such a fucking shame. And what's best is, none of my friends are interested or they don't have money. And a few weeks ago, I was thinking, maybe this year things will be different. Maybe my birthday will be a happy one and I'll actually enjoy this supposedly joyous occasion. But things always fuck up, and here I am, crying, because once again I'm celebrating my birthday alone, and what can I do but sit here and cry?