Saturday, January 30, 2010

I've been through a lot. I was sexually abused. I was anorexic. I was depressed. I was suicidal. And that was the past. Now? I consider myself a rape survivor, instead of a rape victim. I'm not stick-thin anymore - I actually have flesh on my bones! I'm not depressed anymore, just a realistic optimist. And I'm not suicidal anymore either.

I've learned to live with myself, to accept myself, and to love myself.

So why should I let all these be shattered just because a boy broke up with me just because I lent a hard-disk to an ex? Just because a boy who claimed to love me replaced me in 11 days with another girl? Why should I destroy all the efforts I made to become who I am today just because of a boy?

I will be strong, and this love, this love that I still have for him, I will devote it to something else. I will not think, not obsess, not analyze, and just move on. I will not be stubborn. I will stop crying. I will stop harassing my friends by constantly mourning over him. I will be happy. I will be optimistic. I will stop being an emo bitch.

:)

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

yes! that shld be the way weiling! I'm sure you can do it. :)

Anonymous said...

I'm in the same plight as you. My boyf broke up with me last nov. He's in the same class and I did not talk to him since. Be strong!

Hui Shan said...

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Weiling said...

> Anonymous 1

Yeah, I know! Shld have be this way a long time ago. Thank you for the encouragement :)))

> Anonymous 2

Oh man, that sucks! Super awkward, huh? At least my ex is in a different class. Oh well. Hope you're doing well!! Thanks for the support :)

> Huishan

*sends a thousand heart back!!!!!!!!!!*