Decimation

Click on it for shocking proof that Albert is a transexual, and therefore is actually a girl.

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Urgh, words cannot describe how much I hate school.
So much assignments, and exams are totally stupid. How can anyone judge our intelligence from some numbers? Has it ever occur to anyone that some people are just not good academically, but waaaaay better in other areas, for example, designing.
I don't see why must our future be determined by some stupid certificates.

Some subjects don't even help in what we are interested in, or what we aspire to be. I want to be a photographer, right? Will knowing chemicals help me? Will knowing algebra help me? Nooooope.

General knowledge is alright, like from maths, how to add and subtract and multiply and divide. From science, how does our bodies work and family planning and sexuality. From english, how to phrase words properly and be understood. And so on and forth.

But others? Not so much. Well, if you want to be a scientist or something, I guess knowing chemicals and whatever helps. But do everyone wants to be one? Exactly my point!

If I was the government, I would make everyone stop schooling when they're P6 and then let them choose what they want to do. But there'll be tests, duh. For example, if they want to be a photographer, test if they know how to operate a basic camera and how to change the modes, etc. If they want to be an author, test if their english is actually readable. As long as they have the basic knowledge and the foundation, let them further study on it.

And not confine them and force them to study things WHICH WILL BE TOTALLY USELESS FOR THEIR FUTURE!!!

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Anyway, I don't know why I'm so sad nowadays. I mean yes I laugh like a lot in school [YOU TELL ME HOW NOT TO LAUGH WITH JENNIFER AROUND?!] but whenever I'm alone or whatever, I start thinking, which is alright, but then I end up thinking too much and I end up forcing back tears.

I don't know when I became this despondent!
I also don't know why I keep dreaming of myself dying lor.

Like, in my dreams, I either end up being:

1) Raped and killed
2) Murdered
3) Shot
4) Stabbed
5) Kidnapped and killed
6) Drowned
7) Burnt alive
8) Eaten alive (?!)
9) Stomped to death in a riot
10) Tortured to death [gruesome to the max]

I think the worst one was when I was surrounded by my family and my friends, and they were very happy and chatting amongst themselves, and they were totally oblivious to my very existence, and they couldn't feel me when I touched them and it turns out it was because I am invisible and when I realize that, I slowly fade away, starting from the feet to the head. And disappear.

Then the ending will be just all my family and friends, still very happy even though I am not around anymore.

And I wake up.