an overflow of words

I always smiled. I'm always smiling, even when my heart is broken. I'm sad but I refuse to show it. I have a lot of problems but I refuse to share it. I have a lot of tears but I refuse to shed it. I'm hurt but I pretend it doesn't and brush it off. I'm disappointed by you but I don't tell you. I'm confused by your words but I pretend to understand. I'm insulted by you but I laugh and pretend it doesn't affect me.

I am the most pretentious person I know, and I sicken myself.