She never slows downShe doesn't know why but she knows that when she's all alone, feels like its all coming down
She won't turn around
The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining downUm hi this will be quite a long post, haha.
But first, today's events.
I walked to school today because my ezlink card has
no money left inside
(HINTHINTHINT) and then it started to drizzle and the whole time I was walking, the only phrase that went through my head was: "Please don't rain please don't rain please don't rain" and ... it didn't, just light drizzle.
If God exists, He must really love me :p HAHA.
Joking x2, no offense too :D
It was super slack today! :) No exams. So during Chinese, I did the paper she gave us (I got 14/25, woo) and then I did Science notes, and since she didn't noticed, I just plugged into my MP3. How can she not notice?! My earphones are
HOT PINK!!!
Its not an ahlian colour okay! >:(
Anyway.
Blahblahblah watched some French movie for English blahblahblah assembly I tutored Juexin history blahblahblah end of school!
Anyway. Moving on to angrier stuffs.
I don't see why I must always give in to people when I say out my opinions and if they disagree with it, they'll scream and shout and tell me how stupid I am.
I am entitled to my own opinions, no matter how "heartless" or "stupid" it is!
My opinions, NOT YOURS.
Let's say ... a few weeks ago, I was talking to my vegetarian primary school friend. She told me that killing and eating animals are wrong. I said, "Its perfectly alright what." She then proceed to scream on the phone, "ITS NOT FUCKING ALRIGHT!!! WHAT ARE YOU, HEARTLESS OR SOMETHING???"
....... *speechless
I was so pissed off and I was crying out of anger.
Everyone is meant to die. Even if we leave them to be, they'll still die. So why not eat them? It's their fate! It's their fate to be eaten by us non-vegetarian human beings!
For clarification, I am not for animal torture. I am totally against it. I hate people who kill these animals ... slowly. Torture it for a long while, then kill it. I am against that. I also am against wearing animal skin. I'm just not against eating animals.
Yes, they don't deserve to be eaten, they did not do us any wrong. Its very unfair. Yet, is life ever fair?
There's this girl in my school. Primary school or secondary school, its up to you to guess. She's smart, skinny and tall. So she is quite pretty, not totally, but quite. But the only problem is that she is not nice. She forces people to do things for her, without waiting for the person to say yes/no. People told her not to do this and that, she still do this and that.
But she still has a lot of friends. When she cries, they crowd around her, tell her not to cry, give her tissue, give her sweets, doing everything they can to coax her not to cry.
Then, there's another girl in my school. Like I said, primary or secondary, its up to you to guess. She's smart and tall, but plump. She is quite pretty too. She is really nice. But because of a thing known as superficiality, when she cries, only a few people (like 3 - 4) go to her, and try to console her, to tell her that everything is okay, and not to cry anymore.
Tell me ... is it fair?
A pretty but mean girl gets more attention than a not as pretty but really nice girl, just because she's pretty.
I am speaking in a majority kind of view. In my view, the latter girl is way prettier than the former. :) Um, if you don't know what latter/former is, then in my view, the 'not as pretty' but really nice girl is prettier than the 'pretty' but mean girl.
Okay, I've totally shifted topic. But the point is that, LIFE IS NOT FAIR.
Not fair for us, NOT FAIR FOR THE ANIMALS EITHER!
YOU JUST THINK THAT THIS IS HEARTLESS BECAUSE I AM NOT AGREEING WITH YOU.
There are no definite answers in this world. There is always 2 sides for a cause, one thats FOR it, one thats AGAINST it. No one is EVER right, because THERE WILL ALWAYS BE MORE REASONINGS THAN ANSWERS!!
Like the existence of God/Jesus! I don't believe in it. I think it's just all a story, a very nice story, fabricated by human.
Its just all quite contradicting; if God is all-forgiving and kind and can't bear to see us suffer and love us all, why is there Hell? Why are there starving orphans? Why are there homeless families? Why are there diseases? Why are there so much evil? It goes on and on.
Btw, Girl A has Girl B and Girl C and Girl D as her bestfriends.
She spends more time with Girl C and they are quite close and they've been through way more than Girl B and Girl D.
But Girl A lists Girl B first, Girl D second, and Girl C last.
Why?
Because Girl C is very opinionated and has different opinions than Girl A and they often disagree, so Girl A don't like Girl C very much because Girl C is not as submissive.
This makes me very sad, for some reason.
Btw, this is not me and my friends, its my friend and her clique.
Digressing, you want me to respect your opinions when you can't even respect mine?! I've respected yours, and I didn't said you were STUPID for having that kind of opinion. BUT YOU TOTALLY DISRESPECTED MINE!
Digressing [once again], whenever someone tell me I should respect them because they're older than me, or they're my elder, I WANT NOTHING MORE THAN TO GRIP THEM ON THE SHOULDER AND SHAKE THEM AWAKE.
Respect.Must.Be.Earned!
You are NOT going to get any of MY respect if you do NOT respect me!
I don't give a flying fuck if you're older than me! Or if you have more 'status' in the world than me!
Even if you're Lee Kuan Yew, if you look down on me, I'll look down on you too.
Why? Why should I bother proving myself to you, that I am indeed worth respect?
WHY?????
I always respect everyone, but if you don't respect me, then I'll just lose all respect for you.
I also cannot stand it when people do not respect my decisions!
Look, I do what I want, this is my life, not yours. You are not going to control my life, make me do things your way or force me to change!
I am entitled to my own decisions, my own opinions ...
and you have to respect it!
As simple as that!
I am not perfect; neither are you. You have absolutely no rights to pick on my flaws, unless you're 100% perfect.
I'm sorry if you think I talk too much but I believe strongly in this quote:
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
I can't live my life for other people. I have to do what's right for me.
I know that everyone I meet is fighting a hard battle, so I try not to add on to their burdens. Most of the time when I'm unhappy, I just keep it to myself. I just apologize like the fool that I am. But heaping insults on me ain't going to ease any struggles you're having. And I have my limits; I will explode soon enough.
It's alright if you disagree with my opinions, but it's not alright if you're going to call me stupid/heartless/brainless just because our opinions clashes.
Like for this post ... if you want to rebuke to this, then please do so. It'll be fun reading something that opposes my thoughts. I am very willing to change my opinions if you can convince me. But if you're just going to go all, "I just read this stupid post from Weiling, it's like so dumb, what the hell was she thinking -.-", then I'm sorry but you're immature as hell and I'm not going to listen to what you have to say.
