Once you've lost something, you lose it forever, no matter how desperately you cling on to it. That's why I always said treasure what you have now, who you have now... because they might disappear from you one day. And you will only have memories to hold. Just memories.
When two people fall in love and then fall apart, the falling isn't always the same. One party will definitely be more hurt than the another, because one cared more. It's upsetting to think that someone can, after so long, so many memories and so much love, just turn around and say, "Sorry, I don't love you anymore." After everything they have gone through, it hurts to think about how somebody can change their mind on such a thing as their love for another. I can’t even begin to understand the reasons behind this. I know things change and nothing lasts, but I just can’t seem to comprehend how can a feeling change, just like that, in a blink of an eye?
It scares me, because in love, you're so exposed, so vulnerable, so weak. You can only pray that when the fairytale ends, you'll still be whole enough to breathe. Because you find people, and then you lose them. And it's the goodbyes that you'd never thought you had to say that hurt the most. My mom once told me once someone dear to you leaves, cry a river, build a bridge and get over it. But how do you start on building, when someone who has built you up had only left you to fall in the end?
I don't like it when people fall apart. Once people are broken in certain ways, they can never be fixed. The damage is permanent; there would always be scars. Even if the scars fade, the memory of how painful it was will always be there, floating delicately through your mind, the aftershock still traveling in the veins.
You know when you’ve found it because you feel it when they take it away.
(PS: No I am not single again. Just blogged this because some of my friends have to change their status from attached to single.)
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8 comments:
wow. i like what you say here. it's so true, so insightful and emotionally mature for a girl like your age.
"HUH YOU BROKE UP AH?!" LOL!
because feelings are irrational and unexplainable.
that's why when you love, you have to be both rational and irrational.
love is not just a strong feeling/ emotion.
love is a choice, a responsible decision to make. love is commitment. love protects.
i got to agree with anonymous 1. you show amazing maturity for your age. you're like what, 15? but your insight, your perception - wow. you're very mature.
Hello! I've been following you for quite a while. This has been your best post to date. You never fail to surprise me (I'm 19) with how emotionally sound you are. You are indeed wise beyond your age.
> To all Anonymous
Gee, I'm so touched by all of your comments! I'm not THAT mature... but thanks anyway, you guys are sweeeeeeet! :)
> Dean
EXTRA ONLY. Hehe
BULLSHIT LA, SHE SO LAME. LOL!
> dean
I WHERE GOT LAME
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